That One Girl..

This morning was a blur. I don't even remember waking up. Its almost lunch and my day is already going horribly. I was talking to my friend Jayyne and in the middle of my sentence Etiffany interrupted and pulled Jayyne away. I decided to just go to the library and catch up on my homework. 

On the way to my last class of the day Allen came up to me and started calling me names. In class I had those words just running through my head; "fat, ugly, useless, waste of space, unwanted." I finally got home but the house was empty. I finally realized my parents were still out of the country on a business trip. 

I couldn't get those words out of my head no matter how much I tried. I kept on crying for hours. I was finally just done. I took some painkillers. I started off with 4 and decided that wasn't enough so I continued taking more and more until there were none left. I  had taken 30 pills and still thought that wasn't enough so I grabbed the next bottle I laid my eyes on. Sleep medication.. It was unopened. I dumped the whole pill bottle into my hand and took a total of 21 pills. 

I was drifting in and out of conciousness. I felt so numb. I couldn't feel a thing. I saw a pair of dull scissors and decided to pick them up. I put the cold metal against my skin, pushed down and slid it down my wrist. I watched the scarlet drops drip down my arm and hit the carpet. I felt an overcoming sensation of happiness. I then fell into a peaceful sleep and expected to never wake up. 

I was then dreaming... It was strange. The next moment I awoke inside of a room. It was cushioned and a blinding white. There were no windows. It was just empty. There was absolutely nothing here. What is this? Why am I here? I couldn't stop asking me questions I knew would go unanswered.