Story Of My Life

Triggered

I tell you to go away.

No, you never do what I say.

You say you are older,

You say you know better than me.

Why must you push me?

This is getting irritating.

I wish we had the relationship we should have had.

But what we have is just sad.

Jealousy fueled your hate.

Is this our fate?

I am in the corner, scared.

While you're standing above me, your teeth bared.

You are so toxic.

It makes me sick.

Why do you manipulate me?

Just let me be!

Give me space!

I don't need to see your face.

If you leave,

I could breath.

When you're gone,

I'll live on.

I don't need you,

I need something new.

You got me triggered!

I am triggered.

When I see you, I get triggered.

You blackmailed me into it, which I hated.

But now I'm addicted.

I couldn't stop this if I tried.

Well, we both know that's a lie.

So this, is my final goodbye.

So this is goodbye.

A/N   Hey guys. I know it has been a while since I uploaded. I have been (A) super busy and (B) trying to work on 50,000 different things all at once. I will try to upload more often, but I definitely cannot promise anything.

The video up top, is from my favorite band, Cimorelli. This is their new song that the just released last week. It is called Kills Me Just The Same. It is a TOTAL BOP! In the first two days of the release, it  got 100,000 streams on Spotify!! I am sure that my listening to it on repeat, contributed heavily to that number! Haha! But seriously you should check Cimorelli out on Spotify, YouTube, Instagram, Twitter, TikTok, and all the other social media platforms. They are absolutely amazing!! Their main focus is on self-care, being yourself, and being positive. They aim to uplift and help people in so many ways. That is why I love them so much. They saved my life as well as countless others'!

This poem is written about a toxic person in my life. The whole point of this one, is to help me get over this person. I was in a really bad place one night, right after seeing this person. It got me thinking. What would happen, if I just let go? Would I be able to heal? Would this person? Then I thought, the only way to know for sure it to try. So I sat down and started writing. I was up all night writing. By the end of it, My eyes were bloodshot, both from lack of sleep and from the countless tears I cried. It was worth every second though! After I was done, It literally felt like one of my burdens were physically being lifted off my shoulders. I was finally able to breath for the first time in my life.

I'm sorry. If I keep talking, You would probably be reading for at least three more hours. So I will leave my rant there. Thank you all for taking time to read my book. It really means a lot to me. And again, go check out Cimorelli! They are awesome! I love you guys. Thank you again.