Seokjin centric oneshot (jin×bangtan)

Dandelions (au)

An:-i really love the song dandelions. Whenever I listen to it , it kinda reminds me of seokjin. 

[Seokjin pov]

Last wish, think something good. What is good if there is no good? Family? Don't have it. What is even the use of this last wish? A last chance to fulfill a wish which one had always had in him. What about me? What is my wish? To be fair, I have everything I have ever wanted. Sometimes you do not realize that what you ever wanted to have was right there with you all along. I too had certain things which I had always desired to have little did I knew all of them were things I already had.

"Hyung...come on am hungry" jungkook whined, "two more minutes." I said. "You have been saying this for past half an hourrrr! Please" jungkook said. I sighed "fine let us go." I said getting up. Dusting of the mud from my pants. "Look!" Jungkook exclaimed. I looked up where he pointed, dandelions. I smile, maybe I do know what I need.

"Kook ah.." I say, "yeah?" He said walking a bit ahead of me. "We should go there..." I say, "where?" He asks turning back. "The place..." I say stopping in my path. "Place? Which place hyung?" Jungkook asked turning around, his slightly longer and messy hair seemed translucent in the setting sun, his usually big eyes more wider, I sighed, "Yah I can not belive you forgot" I said.

I resumed my walk back. "Hyung!" I hear the whiny voice of jungkook, a pout probably formed along with a frown of confusion. "Which place tell me!" He says. I sigh, it was quite expectant of him. "Can not belive you forgot kook" I say. I hear his footsteps match mine at a fast pace. "Hyung tell me! I don't know which place!" He said. "You know what am kinda mad how can you forget it!" I say. "Hyuuunggg.." jungkook whined.

I chuckle, "it's not fair tell me!" He whines more. "No.." I say. "Hyuuunggg.." he kept whining. I kept walking. I hope they hadn't forgotten. As the sun went down and air kept getting colder and jungkook's protests turned into murmurs of his thoughts spoken out loud, we reach my house, the muffled chatters heard above the clashes of plates and laughter. I could hear jungkook saying I really don't remember which place. At least they will.

I open the door, the strangely familiar warmth surrounding us. "Hyung kookie! You are back!" Jimin beamed up, I smile back taking my jacket off. Jungkook followed behind, "you know hyung we made dinner!" Taehyung says, I smile "oh really?" I ask. "Yes! I made the dinner to be more specific and he just cut off the vegetables." Yoongi says, I laugh. "I know I know. Let us sit and eat then? It is already so late" I say. They all nod excitedly and gathered around the table getting their food in their plates. I sat at my usual corner. But unlike other days, the chairs around me were filled up with people. And love.

Seeing them after this long while calmed me somehow. "Hyung tell me which place...." jungkook said. They all looked up confused, "which place?" Taehyung asked. "Oh well, the place we visited when we were younger..." I said. "Do you mean  that dandelion field?" Namjoon said, "Yup that place!" I said. "Oh....oh that.." jungkook said, the excitement in his voice somehow faded. "Yeah that place...." I said. "You still remember it?" Hoseok asked, "Of Course.. I do how can I forget?" I said smiling.

"I mean, it is not something special either, just a field with flowers." Jimin said, "well and to be honest it must be so old now. I don't really think there will be left anything of it." Namjoon said. "Yeah as good as a trashland" yoongi added. "I mean they should put that land to some good use now. To build some house or something. You know right it is so hard to get land these days" taehyung added. "Last time I checked the prices of land I bet it is worth millions." Jungkook said. I look down, "true. It must be quite wasteful now" I say. "Yeah right. Anyways why did you wanted to go there?" Yoongi asked.

"Not really...well, I didn't wanted to go, it just flashed up in my memories" I said. Yoongi hummed and continued eating up his meal. They all looked like they don't really cared for it, I mean why should they? Just an old rusted piece of land. I look at them laughing and enjoying amongst themselves. the best sight, am grateful, at least  i  was able to see and meet them before I am gone. 

Did not realized the people who used to be so young and innocent and trailed behind me with one word in their mouth," hyung " are all grown up and have their own view of the world perhaps a little more mature than mine, a little more wider than the small town we grew up in, 

more practical and realistic than the fairy tales they grew up listening to, perhaps they now think cinderella was one big fool to marry a man with whom she just danced one night instead of enjoying her new found freedom from her step mother and sisters. I think if I might have left this town I too would have thought like them, a little more mature, a little more opinionated, a little more practical and realistic, but I was stuck here and now I don't really have enough time to explore.

So here I am, a bit childish, a bit small thought person(An; here i mean in a sense that he got a small limited thinking to the town, but rest of them are more mature and have wider views than him) 

maybe not as realistic as them and not practical at all. I still think cinderella did the right thing by marrying the man she met once in her life because I still lean on the magic, on the destiny, that they both were meant for each other. Just like they were for me. So I go Back to that dandelion field, so fragile, yet so mesmerizing.

The faded colours it possessed, the soft patronizing soil, where it smelt like it just rained but it was dry like a dessert. Still feel those patters down, when I was the only one who was tall. Gotta yell out a Jungkook do not go there! every 5 minutes, gotta pull namjoon and hoseok apart from fighting, gotta calm yoongi's nerves down.

make sure tae and jimin are all together and then at end cuddle up with them on the field, seeing all the dandelions fly out together. I should have thought for a better wish. Should have asked for them to get back where we all laid down on the ground close to each other pointing and looking at the sky.

While they kept joking and whining as I tried to make a secret  wish on every one of them, that they stay mine forever. I guess I gotta let them go like the dandelions in the sky. ''Hyung!'' I look up flinching a bit. ''You called us all...and then you wont even talk to us?'' taehyung said with a pout. I chuckle, "am sorry i was just lost for a bit" i say, I gotta try to keep up this one night. 2 months were too many months for a lone person to survive. 

Soon enough the dinner comes to an end, they all rise up. I hug them all one last time. They say they will visit soon and i smile and nod tell them to take care forever. I smile as they sit in their own cars and wave them off. The strange familiar warmth all gone.

Known unwanted coldness came around. I look around their traces still present over my house. plates, a forgotten scarf, the mud their shoes brought in, the cards they played, the smiles they had, the care they got with them. All were there. I sigh, picking up their last traces, putting them in sink, washing them of with cold water, scrubbing them with harsh soap and scrub.

Swept away the mud from the different places they been to. Sweeping away my traces as well. Gathered the long forgotten scarf, put it in the washer, watching it spin around getting clean off the scent of its previous master. Hung it on the aging laundry string. Gathered up the cards putting them in where they will never be touched ever again.  

I sigh, feeling each one of the bones in me creak and cry out in utter pain and sickness. If i would have told them....would they remember? I am glad, i didn't told them. If I would have I would have never learnt the art of letting go. 

I pulled out the paper i made few days ago. to be taken under construction purposes. i wrote it down. Another long exhausted sigh left my mouth. I laid down on my bed, anyways a peaceful death in sleep is all i had ever asked for. Death won't be hard.

[Seokjin pov end]

An:- How is it? 

ok so to clarify in my mind i had it like Jin was sick and was about to die, and bangtan do not know, so seokjin calls them and does not tells them but his last wish was to cuddle up with bangtan after a fun playful day at the dandelions field and breath his last in their embrace. And he does dies peacefully in their embrace but then i did a small twist..............

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