clean - H.S

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harry and i met on a lonely summer night in 2012. i was lonely, so was he. it was an easy connection, so i went home with him. we did unspeakable things. yet i left with his number, we quickly became friends, we connected instantly. then eventually we 'fell in love' if you want to say that. i think we were both needing someone and we both filled that gap. but i fell for him, i still dont know if he even fell for me.

so hear our fucked up love story.. if you call it that

8 months later from that lonely night, it was 2013. we were talking, i was head over heels for him, he met my mother, my grandmother, and even my sister. he was anything you'd want him to be. i was a mirrorball for him. i showed him every version of myself.

i met his mom, anne. and his sister, gemma. i learned that night about english love affair, gem loves to talk about it to anyone. she finds it fun how a song is written about her by a boy band, she believes its any fangirls dream. did i forget to mention? harry was a international boy band star, millions of fans, millions of girls who wanted him, and he was indeed a song writer. but so was i, i wrote songs about him and he wrote songs about me. i believed we were inlove and told my best friend at the time about it, inez. inez was my best friend for over 18 years. we met in primary school and we've been attached by the hip since then. i've been there for her shitty heartbreaks. when i met harry, inez was jealous. she was  a snake, a liar, a backstabbing bitch.

think of the average teenage backstabbing dramatic friendship-breakup, that was it. she sold songs i put my entire heart into, told harry i wasnt who i was. harry ghosted me for 6 weeks until zayn called me one night and told me harry was talking about me the entire time. i hung up on the spot and started being clean of harry. for 10 months i was ok, i felt ok again. until he reached out to me, asking how i plants were. i let them die during month one. i pressed call and just called him. we talked for hours, he said some words that he told me he didnt regret. we were talking again. he came to my house and 'comforted me' little did i know inez was pregnant. 'with his child' harry found out while he was with me and all i heard was 'i never fucking slept with you, i barely talk to you. dont ruin my career inez' ive never left my home faster, i left faster then when i found out about my cat being sick. i didnt even put on a jacket. i threw on the first shoes i saw and left. harry didnt deserve me, he had contact with inez after knowing what she did. inez was a backstabbing bitch who was a home wrecker, bored with her own life. she did this to august and james. inez always did this and i couldnt believe she did it to me, so where'd i go? the studio, and thats where i wrote my debut single called 'clean' 

did i ever mention, im august. i was inlove with james my first 2 years of highschool. after inez homewrecked them i added james on snapchat. we started dating , then he cheated on me with inez. my biggest fear was her doing the same thing.

harry begged for my forgiveness "please august i love you, i know i never said it but i've never felt this way for anyone. i see myself with you in 20 years. fuck it, maybe even 70. i can see me with you forever, i know inez is making shit up, but we dont need to focus on her m'kay? your all that matters to me aug. i dont want to lose you, not again. you make me wanna be me. you make me happy. you make me a better man. aug, i know your mad but please dont give me the silent treatment, i need to hear your-" 

"okay." thats all i said

"harry, i love you too. but i went 10 months without you then you wander back into my life like nothing ever happened. like i didnt have sleepless nights, or when my own mother was worried for me. plus.. my mom doesnt like you now and my mom is my number one judge on men. i know you love me , but i cant believe it. ill give you the fucking silent treatment if i fucking feel like it. your a douche. you played with me, and yet here you are begging for my forgiveness." my voice started cracking towards the end then i felt a warm embrace around me then a kiss on the top of my head "aug, i want a restart. just one. please"

"fine. just one."

he looks me in the eyes 

"really?"

"yes h." i smile

"i missed you."

thats what i wished happened. but the real thing is instead of the "i missed you" it was "oh shit oh shit oh shit". inez leaked photos of harry and i from early on in our relationship the first time to paparazzi. it was everywhere, i gained thousands of followers in minutes. harry was panicking and so was i. i wasnt wrong when i said inez was a backstabbing bitch. her fake blonde, bitchy personality self is the worst person you could ever meet, also, she was one of victoria's secrets 'most popular' , 'liked' , 'hot' models. she still had her thousands spent on plastic surgery spent on getting that ass, and boobs. she was all fake, so i leaked a picture of her.

"you need to leave harry. you cant be here, go call your manager and go home"

"no. im staying i need to work this out"

he deletes all of his social media.

A/N- first fan fic idk how to feel!! pls comment ab it !!!