Moon

moon { one shot }

"The moon is a loyal companion. It never leaves. It's always there, watching, steadfast, knowing us in our light and dark moments." — Juliet, Shatter Me.

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I looked at the moon and reminisced everything that happened this day.

I looked at it trying to question so many things. All the whys, what ifs and hows about my life right now.

I questioned so many things. Life, school, people, me.

While staring at the moon, then I thought, "Am I just insecure about myself? Do I just make other 'problems' more of a problem itself? Am I only over thinking things? It was not supposed to be this way, was it?"

With the cricket sound like silence, I then know the answer to my question.

"Yes, dear, you might be over thinking things that lead you to make those things a problem. You might be insecure about yourself. But here, let me tell you.. You, yourself is still growing. You are still exploring this ironically crazy and mean yet beautiful world. You are still learning—and you will still be. In this, you'll experience more problems in the near future. You're still young—enjoy life, set aside those insecurities. Cherish every moment."

"Because who knows? Things will not be like what you thought it would be."

"While going through life's journey, you can't avoid the negative thoughts, the negativity. But there is always the positive side, you know? Always look for the positive one or you can use those negativity to make your life better. To make yourself better. But if you're experiencing hardships just by now, you know who to talk to. Look up. The sky. The stars. The moon. I'm always there to listen to you."

"But I do know something. It's not just about your insecurities and problems and negativity, is it? Because;

You were betrayed.

You were bullied.

You tried.

You were blamed by the things you haven't done.

You were abused by your kindness.

You cry. You cry every night, just like now.

You act like everything is okay.

You are hurt.

You are tired... very tired.

You want to tell someone your situation and talk about it. And I'm glad you remember me, for I am your moon who gives you light through your darkest hour. Despite all these, always remember that you are beautiful, you may not see it, you may not believe it, but you are. And there are people around you who loves you no matter what. As I said a while ago, always look for the positive side. You should also keep in mind that in three words, life goes on."

"Never hesitate to talk to me... and I will be listening. For you are not alone. I am always and together with you. And you, yourself too."

I smiled as I was still looking at the moon. It's as if I can hear it talking to me.

One of the reasons why I love watching the moon during these times... for I am aware that I am in the company of my best friend and closest companion, who understands and loves me and whom I love—the one who gives me light through the darkness at night.