(all my stories are like my diary.)
please enjoy! and they'll be more every weekend
<3
author( Blake aka oh-deardiary)
(p.s poems are always at the bottom)
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I tend to have a bad past of love, maybe it's me?
even if it was me how come I have so much bad luck, people tend to see me as a monster who breaks hearts.
yet I apologize to anyone for anything, I hate feeling hated. This feeling makes me have guilt. I may not show the guilt since I've been bottling it up just for people to know I'm okay.
even if I'm okay, people always ask me
"are you okay?", or even "why do you look mad?" people say I have anger issues and I believe them. I do have anger issues.
people tend to judge you for what you wear or how you act.
why not just change that? how about we just judge people for their personality? that would be so fucking useful huh.
I tried committing suicide for so long.
yes, It took courage but I ended being a coward. not for being scared of leaving people behind but the fact what is going to happen to my soul? not like I have a soul but yeah.
my ex boyfriend knew I wanted to die and knew I had addictions, yet he judged me when I told him I relapsed.
he broke me when he judged me.
I thought he would be the person to support me through the whole fucking interaction of people.
but no, he was the one who judged me the hardest he judges me and made me feel hurt. he didn't care did he? No No he didn't because when I broke up with him he found a new replacement.
I know, I know I'm selfish, all my stories aligned. I wanted to break up with him for another opposite reason. which was the fact he never showed affection which In fact, I understand but judging me hurt me the most. I cried for weeks and yet he seemed fine? It's not like I loved you? Or even liked you but I'll try my best to stay clean not for you but for myself and my future lover.
poem?
I tend to forgive yet I don't forget.
so don't get carried away
because one day I'll tell you
how I feel
and maybe one day
maybe just one day
we'll dance together in the stars.
