Your a mentally unstable girl who can't keep her life together or have motivation to get up and brush your teeth. It's the simple tasks that you just couldn't do. On weekends you wouldn't get up until 2-3pm, it was bad.
Things have been going downhill since Natasha broke up with you. She was always there for you. If you couldn't shower and get dressed in the mornings, she would pick you up from bed and put you in the bath, making sure it's the perfect temperature, making sure to put the towel rail on to heat the towel up for when you got out so you weren't freezing. She would brush your hair and teeth, hug you when you had bad nightmares and look after you no matter what.
That was until you and her had a big argument and you went too far. After you had said the words "I'm glad you got sent to hydra, You and your idiot sister should've died there No wonder your adopted." The look on Nats face was so sad, The picture still ran through your head of her face of shock.
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Natasha had ran a bath for you she knew you hadn't slept in a few days so she knew it was a manic episode but it still hurt her so much. once you got in the bath, she had packed her bags and left, so when you got out and you were yelling her name, she was nowhere to be found.
The guilt you felt after was destroying you, You tried to apologise so many times and left so many voice mails sobbing and saying sorry that it sounded like you were desperate, because you were. She was the only thing keeping you alive at this point. But not anymore. Everything has gone downhill, Your hair is in nots, you haven't showered or ate for as long as you can remember. It was getting so bad you just stayed in bed all day. The bad thing was that you had now missed 2 months off of school, And Nat was getting worried.
Nat—
It completely destroyed her. She felt so weak after you said it to her. She was getting worried though because you hadn't came in in over 2 months now. She knew you was trying to contact her but she can't build up the courage to awnser. 'What if i say the wrong thing and start lashing out on her' Natasha thought in her head.
'I miss her so much, i just want to hug her but i can't, not after what she did to me. I love her with my whole heart' The thoughts were rushing through Nat's head to the point where she couldn't handle it anymore and she finally called you. The line didn't even ring for 3 seconds and you had picked up. "Nat?" She heard over the phone, You sounded so tired. "Hey." Nat said quietly. "Hey, I'm really sorry, I miss you and i was so wrong to say-" Nat cut you off by saying "It hurt me, a lot. Can you meet, Today at the corner cafe?." She said. "I don't know, I'll have to shower and brush my hair out which will take a while and i have to get up." you replied. nat: "Forget it, i'll come to yours." you:"Oh. Are you sure?" nat: "yeah. see u at 4:30." you: "okay. okay just walk through the door it'll be open." Nat: "see you soon." —— She was annoyed with you but she needed to see you, And talk it through with you in case it was too late. You had fell asleep and woke up at 4:50. "Shit" you said and groaned while you covered your face with your hands. You got up and walked to the kitchen, not noticing that Nat was sitting on the sofa across your bedroom. "Nat!" You yelled. "Shit uh fuck" you said quickly hiding in the bathroom, the state you were in was so bad you didn't want Nat to see you this bad. "y/n, Open the door. Please" Nat said while softly knocking on the door. You unlocked it but didn't open it. You heard the handle go down and you hurried into the corner and pulled your legs up to your face to hide. "Y/n, look at me, i'm not going to shout at you or anything, But what you said really hurt me and i just want to talk through it." "NO YOU DONT! WHAT I SAID HURT YOU AND YOU'LL NEVER FORGIVE ME!!" You shouted while sobbing. "I forgive you. You were going through and episode. I'm just still hurt by it." Nat said trying not to raise her voice. "Look at me please y/n" You looked at Nat and her green eyes, they were so cute. You were a mess. "cmon, stand up" Nat said while taking your arm. And sitting you on a chair. She pulled your shirt off along with the rest of your clothes. "Jesus y/n, When was the last time you ate?!!" Nat exclaimed while running her hands on your ribs. "i don't know, can we not talk about it please?" Nat sighs and gets up to run a bath. She's adds bubbles and soaps.
"Nat." You whispered "mhm" "I am really sorry. seriously, if i could take it all back i would. I wasn't in the right headspace and it wasn't fair on you. I swear i didn't mean it." You said starting to tear up again. "I know, i know. It's gonna be okay." Nat replied. "But i feel like your looking after me and i'm not doing anything for you, It makes me feel bad. I want to do stuff for you because you do basically everything for me because i can't do it myself and i'm so happy to have someone like you but i want to feel like i'm helping you too you know?" You said sobbing in your hands. "Y/N, You being here is enough. You have no idea how much i missed you i was so worried about you but i couldn't come back to see you because i didn't want to say something to you and lash out on you." Nat replied while walking over to you and placing her hands over your knees. "I love you so much Nat." "I love you so much too y/n. Now cmon let's get in this bath." Nat made sure you were comfy and she sat you up so she could shampoo and conditioner your hair. Brushing it trying to get the knots out. It was working. It was taking a while but she finally finished. She got up and grabbed the sponge & body wash.
After bathing you, she got some clothes and got you dressed. You felt so much better now. "Is it okay if i go to the shop real quick? It'll only take 5 Minutes Pleaseee?" You say exited as an idea popped into your head. You lived opposite a shop so it was pretty easy. "Okay. 5 minutes only, I Love you!!" "I love you too!!" You said as you grabbed your coat and shoes.
Rushing back from the shop, You run through the front door, not bothering to take your shoes or coat off you shout Natashas name. Nat comes running straight away. "Y/N?!? You scared me jesus i thought something was wrong" Nat yells "Sorry!! Buttt i got you flowers!!" You say pulling them from behind your back. "Awh, Y/N. You should've have" Nat says while smiling "You deserve them!!" you exclaim loudly while hugging and kissing her
You and Nat were snuggled up in your bed, sheets clean with a movie on. You were laying on Nats chest and she doesn't realise that you fell asleep. "y/n you awake?" she whispered Nat was playing with your hair and twirling it in her hands. "goodnight love" Nat whispers while kissing your forehead.
