03 - 06 - 28
iMessage
Loveeey
Today 3:14 am
Verin:
Hey Astrei!
First of I wanted to say thankyou and..
I love you..
and this is making me fucking cry.
By the way. Astrei I'm going back to new york. While texting you these messages I'm at the airport. Waiting for my flight.
I'll be staying with my kuya and Dad in new york for good na.
My dad told me i would study there again and handle our business. I have no choice :))
Wala na akong tahanan dito eh.
Ikaw sana kaso parang hindi mo na ako kailangan
I'm not guilt tripping you for prioritizing your daughter first. I said that because I know you want me but you don't need me anymore.
I was happy that you came. Not the first time when you gave me flowers for your 'friendly gestures' But the time when you finally see me as the one who secretly and lowkey admire you.
Cause who would taught that the Veronica Augustine Rivera likes someone who love someone else?
The time you give me flowers back then. The time you watch our gigs. I don't know I felt something I never felt for someone before. I felt loved because all my life I never felt being appreciated before.
Supporting my dreams. No one made me feel that back then. Lahat sila tutol sa musika ko.
I somehow fell for you back then. I was denial because what you did, hurt me.
You made me feel loved, wanted and everything that any girl could ask for.
When I decided to give you chance. I know that you somehow still love Stella. I know you were hurt because she cheated on you. I settled for that because I can see that you're doing your best to build up my trust for you again.
You did, minahal moko. You're always vocal about how you love me and it made me forget the reality for once. And I let my guards down and let you enter my life.
But I can't go on like this, Love.
When we found out you have a daughter with her I'm happy for you but to be honest I also felt threatened because what if when you visit your daughter everytime marealize mo na mahal mo pa siya? Mahal mo ulit siya. Paano ako?
I'm insecure and I overthink a lot that you might not want me, so napagisipisip ko na itigil na lang.
It hurts so much so I'm finally choosing to let go than keep fighting my thoughts.
I'm finally choosing to have my peace of mind.
Maybe I just love you that's why I ooverthink a lot. Sorry for that. Maybe I'll be better the next time you'll see me.
Gusto ko sana sabihin 'to sa personal but you ditched me. It's fine though. I understand.
Astrei thank you so much for staying with me.
You never judged me.
You never let anyone hurt me.
I'm really grateful that I met you.
And I'm really grateful that I loved a guy like you.
You're the perfect guy that I want but I can't have.
Maybe we're not for each other.
Astrei Nathaniel. Thankyou for being my home.
You became my tahanan.
I found my solace in you.
You're my safe place.
I'm sorry Astrei if I couldn't stay.
I'm sorry I couldn't be your home anymore.
But I'm willing to be your hotel while searching or building back your real home..
Maybe I'm once your home. But someday you're gonna find your real home. That home that would stay forever.
I love you.
You'll always be my number one.
And I'll never regret loving you.
So Goodbye Astrei.
Goodluck being a father to your wonderful daughter!! :DDD
Until we meet again, My Love..
