5. still falling

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you heard ash sigh after you got out of the car. when you walked inside you saw fez and lex hugging like they were about to die. 'i will just leave, you do you' and so i went upstairs to ash's room. i was still in his clothes so i grabbed a towel and went to the bathroom to shower. when i was done i saw a pair of new sweats and a oversized tee laying on the bed. i walked downstairs when i heard fez yell at lexi and ash ''y/n told me that lexi had a boyfriend i just felt like you needed to know!'' ash yelled back. when i saw lexi crying i felt sick to my stomach. i immediately went back upstairs into the bathroom and locked the door. 'fuck, i forgot to take my medication' as i said that i started to feel like the shirt was too tight. 'fuck' i knew that feeling because after that i started breathing heavier and heavier. i was having a panic attack. i tried to remember where my medication was in my bag but then i remembered that i left it on the table at home. 

i heard someone walk upstairs. ''y/n?!'' i started breathing even harder to the point i couldn't breath. ''Y/N?!?!, is that u!?'' ash screamed. when he tried to open the door it was obviously locked. at this point i felt like i was gonna die. when ash couldn't hear me breath anymore he punched the door so hard that there came a hole in it. he could see me struggling to breath. he unlocked the door from the inside and came running to me. ''Y/N?!?! ARE YOU OKAY?!? he called lexi but she didn't respond so he tried to calm me down. ''shhhh y/n im here'' he said while hugging me. when i calmed down a bit he helped me stand up and walk to his room. ''shhh it's alright dont worry'' ash said when i opened my mouth to say something. i layed down on the bed. ash put the covers over me and kissed me goodnight on my forehead. he went back downstairs. 

it was around 3 am when i woke up. i remembered everything again. i wanted to go to lexi immediately but she was probably still sleeping.  i had a dry throat from the panic attack. i quickly went out of the bed and out of the room so i wouldn't wake ash. i walked downstairs to grab a glass of water. i opened the fridge to see if i wanted something. when i was reaching for the milk i felt 2 hands wrap around my waist. ''shhh'' i heard ash whisper in my ear. ash opened the cabinet above the fridge to grab some cereal. ''here'' ash handed me the cereal. he already had 2 bowls ready on the table. i poured the cereal and the milk in the bowls. ash grabbed one and sat down to eat it. i went to sit next to him. ''u feeling alright again?'' ash said with a mouth full of cereal. 'chew with you mouth closed, it disgusting.' i said while pretending to vomit. ''you didn't answer my question.'' 'yea im good, thanks btw for helping me.' said while i putted my bowl in the sink. 'im gonna sleep, night' i said while walking upstairs. when i walked in the bathroom i saw myself blushing for a little bit. 'oh fuck no' i said while washing my face with cold water. 

when i was laying in bed i heard ash open the door. after a few minutes i had it super cold. 'im freezing' i said under my breath. a second later i felt the cover pull. then i felt ash hug me from behind. '' im freezing too, goodnight darling'' he said after giving me a kiss on my head. when i woke up ash was snoring loud as fuck. 'stop snoring like a pig' i said while kicking him. ''hmmm'' he murmured before sleeping again. i went out of his arms to go shower. when i picked some clothes from his closet i found him lying awake. '' where you going darling?'' 'oh you shut up' i said while walking out the door. 

when i was done in the bathroom i heard lexi and fez talk downstairs so i ran to them. 'LEXI in so so so sorry it was a joke i just messed around with ash because i didn't wanted to sleep on the couch and im so sorry fez tha-' ''dont worry, we already figured it out'' fez said while staring cold out front. 'look fez im really fucking sorry i didn't think ash would say something i-' fez now looked at me. ''i said it's alright!'' he said while walking to his room. i knew that it absolutely wasn't alright. i just fucked up my sisters first love. fuckkkk. i started breathing heavier and heavier. ''dont worry y/n, come here it's alright'' lexi said while inviting me to hug her. 'no its not i just fucked everything up, look im so so s-sorry' i said while starting to shake. ''it is, just dont worry y/n.'' but i just couldn't calm down. ''y/n wheres your medication?......y/n?!......Y/N?!?!'' lexi yelled but i couldn't breathe anymore. when ash heard lexi yell my name for the 5th time he ran downstairs to check. ''fuck'' he said while seeing that fez was gone. ''shhhh its alright'' ash said while comforting me just like yesterday. after a while i had calmed down. ''are you okay?'' lexi asked while grabbing a glass of water. ''here, drink, you will feel better.'' 'thanks, i have a huge migraine, do yall have something stronger than a painkiller?'  i asked towards ash. ''uhhmm..... yea i do, let me grab it.'' he walked over to the table grabbed a key and walked upstairs. then i heard him unlock the door that was locked before.




heyy yalll :) sorry for the kinda shorter chapter, but thanks on almost 20 reads tho! well see you in the next one ig :)

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