I still want you

Chapter 1

Charlotte

Waking up is a pain. Every morning it's a chore just to get out off bed so I end up lying there for an extra ten minutes before I decide to do anything. That's the position I'm in now, laying here staring at the ceiling for no reason what so ever.

A few minutes later I drag myself out of the bed to open the curtains, the sky looks really beautiful outside since it's a pinkish orange colour. I walk over to  get my phone from my bed side table before a notification pops up from messages. It's from my friend Lana, I press down on the message so it doesn't come up that I've read it cause it takes me way to long to respond to simple message ( especially when I've just woke up).

It says 'I'm on my way'.

Crap.

I made plans that she was going to come over here  and we were going to rewatch all off our old dance routines like a few weeks ago. My brain finds it really easy for me to forget things like this.

I throw on a dark blue hoodie and black leggings on and quickly sort out my hair so I don't look like a full on poodle with me fluffy hair. She still won't be here for a while since she lives about 30 minutes away and the message was sent 6 minutes ago so may as-well clean up the house a bit before she gets here.

I finish up before I look outside my bedroom window  and see a taxi pull up outside. I go downstairs and open the door where Lana stood. Lana has long blond hair that she dyed and was wearing a white shirt with a black jacket and jeans.

'Haven't seen you in a while how are you' I ask her as she walks in.
'Depressed as always nothing special' she lets out a small giggle 'how about you?'
'Really bored. I have nothing to do half the time others than stare at the wall' it's true. Working in a ordinary store job as a cashier is easy but incredibly boring.

'I've got the videos up on my phone. So we connecting it up in your rooms TV?' Lana asked tilting her heads slightly.

'Yep you do that' I'm not really smart at phone stuff so I have not clue how that works but Lana did ICT for GCSEs so she's quite good at it. She presses a bunch of buttons and the video pops up onto the TV.

'Ok then which one first?'
'Lion king definitely. That was my fav.'

She swipes on her phone and the video comes up. We start watching and can straight away see all the mistakes that were made in this competition.

'I'm surprised we got placed for this' Lana says.

'We got placed?' I'm surprised that she can remember so far back, especially with her memory.

'Ye we got second' I think she's even surprised she remembered that with the proud tone in her voice.

We continue watching through and pointing out every detail that we could remember and all our friends that were in it that left later on or we just don't talk to anymore. I wish I could speak to to my old friends more.

We finish the video and before she clicks on another she pauses for a minute before continuing. It's a video of us when we were 13 before we went on stage. It's nothing serious but what came after was probably why she was so hesitant to press play.

The video is just Lana jumping up and down in excitement and me standing next to her talking about how we're going to win the competition because we had this one really good dancer.

'This was the day you confessed to me' I break the silence. I'm not sure if it was a good idea to say that in this situations but the silence was deafening.

'Ye I remember. I was stupid' she laughs not making eye contact with me. The laugh was obviously fake but I didn't push further.

That day Lana took me out the room and confessed that she loved me and I turned her down because she was only my best friend to me. She took it well on the cover but you could tell that she was really upset.

We're older now and passed stupid crushes and liking our best friend. I think so anyway. I'm not sure if Lana ever got over me because she still shows signs. If that's the case then it must have been painful seeing me dating all these people and asking her what I should do.

'Sorry I need the toilet' she leaves the room.

Great I've made it awkward now go me. I sit on the bed as I wait for her to come back and I start drifting into my thoughts. Could I ever love her back if she still loved me ? Does she still love me? Should I ask? Do i-

'Sorry for the wait' my thoughts are interrupted by Lana coming back into the room.

I decide not to bring up anything.