A Different Perspective (Mazerunner)

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After spending three years in the glade, you make new family with everyone you meet, I am Jean. Am I the only girl in the glade? Sure. But I enjoy the attention.

Over three years my "friend group has changed several times. When I first got here I never talked to anyone. How could anyone expect me to? A strange new world, with only vague shadows left in the background of my imagination.
Now I spend most of my time with people like Frypan, Gally, Minho, and the occasional Thomas or Newt. (I wasn't really in their top pick of people to hang out with) We still talked with other boys all the time, I mean like I said, we're all family.
The only difference is that we're almost like cousins instead of siblings, we get along really well, but also would enjoy punching one another in the face.

But I keep thinking about three years. What has it come to? Working hard to stay alive in the day while having party's every other night?

Sometimes I just get lost in all of it. How big the walls are. How long we'll be here. How long we've already been here. When do supplies run out.....
....when do we run out.
Do we run out of the maze....
or do we run out of time?

Too many things run through my head. That's what I use the rest of my time for . Being alone.

That's also when the boys get worried
about me. I get too stressed. I separate myself from them so as to not take it out on them... again.. I'm always scared to lash out at someone. I just wouldn't be able to control it and then someone could get hurt. Sometimes I have nightmares about it. I end up hurting someone and I'll never be able to go back and undo it. Fix it..

But three years can do that to someone. That's what I tell myself, that's what the boys tell me. The only thing was it wasn't three years like the boys said. Only I knew,
.. it started from the very beginning.