i just want love to be honest. i've been looking for love in guys bc i haven't learned how to love myself. will i stop looking for it in guys? hell no but self awareness is the first step.
i'm supposed to be going on another date with zack sometime next week. i don't know if i should or even if i want to...i feel guilty because i'm with aurelien but i know he wouldn't hesitate to fuck any piece of ass that walks his way. i think i'm the only one who'll put up with his bullshit tho or i hope i am.
i met aurlien on ig 3 months ago and everything was nice until i didn't want to have phone sex anymore... all of a sudden i was texting him more than he texted me and he'd get easily irritated with me. then i'd see his thirsty ass in girls comments everywhere and every time i asked him to stop he hit me with some "but i ft you everyday, im with you, i love you, i only do it for followers." followers my ass,you ain't shit nigga. but i can't leave cus i love him so muchhhh fuck i hate being a lover girl. aurlien lives in another state while i live in miami
but let's get into zack i met him at the beach last month, i went with my friend for her birthday and him and all his friends were all over me and mine...shiii mine as well🤷🏾♀️. i got his number and the next weekend we went to the movies where this cracka tried to get some coochie, sir who do you think i am?? we just kissed and i loved it and that was my first kiss. i was shaking a lot because i was high ass hell but he understood and it was cool, kinda awkward tho. zack live down here too.😁
i think imma invite my one of my best friend's over. i miss kiara so much.i just saw her aggy ass friday but i love me some her. she always come matching energy and i love it fr, every time i talk to her it's like talking to a mirror...yeaa lemme text her right now.
K i 🧘🏾♀️💗
wyd pookie-me
nothing chilling why what's up-ki
im bored asf you wanna come over?-me
you got snacks?👀-ki
fatassss i'll probably order sum😹-me
alr i'll be there in like 15-ki
oh bring some papers, and your tray ion know where my stuff at💀-me
leave it to yo dumbass to loose some shit😭-ki
ily too 🙄-me
i put my phone down and got in the shower. i got so much homework to do by next week but my mom not gone be home all weekend..and it's spring break? oh yea school not even on my mind rn.
Ki got a spare key so she'll probably see herself in if im in the shower. we haven't had a sleepover in so long i miss staying up all night with her bro we laugh over any and ERRTHANG. we finna be high and happy all night long.
i heard someone walking through the house, that's probably her. footsteps get closer then i hear the bathroom doorknob turn then a bang.
"open the door mani i gotta pee!!" more banging following her sentence ugh just my a sister, nina.
"go to mommy bathroom im having me time" i heard her suck her teeth right after i said me time but oh well a bitch gotta get cute. i heard another key turn in the door then shortly after footsteps walking towards what i think would be my room.
"mani??" that's definitely ki
"i'm in the shower, when we get out we can go to the car but roll up while im here cus no time will be wasted !!" i giggle after my sentence and so does her silly ass.
i finish bathing and come out in my towel.
"BESTFRANNNNN",ki runs and hugs me
"ion swing that way twin" i look her up and down in a serious way but i can't help but laugh
she laughs as well "girl shut the fuck up"
i hug her back then make my way over to my dresser, grabbing some black panties, a sports bra and a big gray pullover and some nike shorts. i got dressed put on some lotion, deodorant yk all that good stuff and grabbed my purse and house keys. the plan was to hotbox outside the house but i want to leave the house maybe stop at a gas station or something, it don't even matter as long as i leave this house. I grabbed the three freshly rolled joints off the dresser and make my way to Ki
"come on lil booty"- i smack ki's butt that was out in the open cus she know better than to leave it out like that...she knew i was gone get her back from friday.
"stop you know my thang jiggle"she got up and attempted to twerk but all that moves was her big ole biddies, she got a lil sum sum back there but her boobs bigger. that's how it work tho i got the big booty no boobs pretty face combo she got the big boobs no booty pretty face, and i wouldn't have it any other way !!
we both walk out the door after i stop by nina's room to let her know i'm leaving. we make our way to the car, she drives cus it's her car and i hate driving, then we buckle up. she puts the car in park as i connect my phone to the bluetooth in her car.
"girls dem sugar" by beenie man and mya play while we drive to an empty parking lot. when i felt the car come to a permanent stop, put my phone down and pick up the joints i put on the dashboard. i grab her lighter,light it, then i hit that shit. not too long after i pass it to her...yea i love this girl to the moon and back.
a/n
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