Bucky's Arrival

chapter 12*

(This is chapter 13 on ao3, but chapter 12 there was just pictures which I dont know how to post here.) (This chapter also contains a few pictures at the end on ao3 to show Bucky's nails, but again I don't know how to add them here.)

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Steve wakes up to Bucky sitting on top of him, repeating his name and poking him in the face. "Steve. Steve."

 "Okay, Bucky! I'm up!" He yawns, rubbing his eyes.

 Bucky rolls off Steve, but keeps a handful of his shirt in his grip. It's been almost a week since he's been back after he had been missing for a few days, and the clinginess hasn't let up at all.

 Steve has learned to deal with it. If Bucky wants to be with him all the time, why should that be a bad thing? Steve loves it. The only time he doesn't like it that much is when he needs to use the bathroom, and Bucky just has to go with him and hold his hand or his shirt. He misses privacy a little. But other than that, he doesn't see a problem.

 He rolls towards Bucky to kiss his cheek, then gets up. Bucky gets up and holds his hand, following as he goes to the dresser and grabs the wipes and a pull up.

 Bucky's been using the toilet now for number two, as long as Steve is willing to go with him and hold his hand at least. So he gets to wear pull ups now in the mornings so he can access the toilet easier. But Steve puts him back in a diaper after he does his business still, since the pull ups just aren't absorbent as the diapers. He found a good brand of diapers online called Northshore, and their pull ups and diapers are way better than the store bought ones. So Bucky wears the GoSupreme pull ups in the morning until he he does his business, and then the more breathable AirSupreme diapers the rest of the day and the MegaMax diapers at night. Bucky likes that the pull ups and the night time diapers both come in black. And Steve likes that the diapers don't leak, especially the night time ones. 

 He leads Bucky back to the bed where he takes off his nighttime diaper, wipes him and then puts him in the pull up. He puts some pants on him and Bucky gets up, signing for hungry.

 Bucky keeps his grip on Steve's hand as they walk to the kitchen.

 "What do you want for breakfast, Buck?" Steve asks, opening the fridge.

 Bucky looks in the fridge for a minute, and points to the bacon.

 So Steve cooks bacon and eggs and toast while Bucky hugs him from behind, laying his head on Steve's shoulder.

 Steve convinces Bucky to sit on his own chair and hold his hand rather than sitting on his lap so they can both eat.

 After breakfast, Steve is on the couch with Bucky tightly cuddling him on his lap. He runs his fingers through Bucky's hair and tells him how much he loves him. "Steve." Bucky says, hugging him tighter, looking at him with those big sad blue eyes.

 Steve's phone pings then, and he pulls it out, expecting a notification that Bucky is wet or something, but it's a text from Fury.

 Mission in DC. Estimated 2 days. You leave in 3 hours. Pack what you need and meet at the quinjet.

Steve feels nothing but panic. He can't leave Bucky, he won't understand, he'll be absolutely heartbroken, especially with how clingy he's been, there's no way Steve can just up and leave with so little notice and after telling him how much he loves him and that he'd never leave. 

 Bucky is still staring up at him, and Steve knows he can't leave him. His eyes are just so sad and pleading, Steve knows he'll be absolutely devastated. Will he really be able to last two whole days without Steve?