Blooming panic x reader one shots and stuff

Toast on aisle 3 (NakedToaster x reader) !Fluff/Angst!

(SPOILER WARNING FOR NAKEDTOASTERS ROUTE!!
CW : DEPRESSION AND INSOMNIA)

You stared at your screen already feeling the tears welling in your eyes. "No.. Nononono NO! God damn it this can't be happening... No!!" You you frantically moved your mouse around the screen clicking, refreshing, trying anything you could possibly think of to re-open the server. It couldn't end like this, losing all your dear friends all at once... losing him. You clenched your fists in anger slamming them down on your desk. Your tears escaping your eyes landing on the worn wood of the desk in-front of your monitor. You tried everything you could think of to reason with Bloombot leading up to this but to no avail. Bloombot shut down the server for good and severed your only connection to the people in it.

"Please... please let this be a bad dream.." your muscles relaxed in your hands a bit the indentation of your fingernails on your palm being left behind. "I have to find a way to find toast again.. I can't lose them like this." You quickly logged onto the FFXIV website and created an account. You tried keeping your username as close as you could to the one you used in the server in hopes it would make finding each other easier. You begin your search immediately.

Hours turn into days, Days turn into weeks of searching the MMO for toast. You've been sustaining yourself on a strict diet of energy drinks, instant ramen, and protein bars lately, basically anything to sustain your body that won't lead you away from the screen for too long.

Every night as soon as you get home from work you log in and start your search. The dark rings around your eyes becoming more prominent by the day. As your hope starts to run out doubts begin to cross your mind... "is he even looking for me?" "What if he's already moved on?" "Will he think I'm crazy for doing this?" "What if we're in completely different timezone's and he's only on when I'm not?" You shake your head in an attempt to refocus and continue your search. There's no time for thinking that way you have to find him again...

You reach to take a bite of your protein bar but you're met with an empty wrapper. "Of course." You knew you'd run out sooner or later you've just been putting off going to the store in hopes you'd find toasty again before you had to. You lift your tired body off of the chair and check the kitchen just to confirm that you've run out of food. To your dismay you're met with empty boxes and a trashcan full of wrappers. "Maybe- maybe a trip to the store will do me some good." You nod to affirm yourself and quickly get changed into a comfortable outfit.

"Keys, mask, wallet, phone, shopping list... I don't think I'm forgetting anything. Alright then. Off I go." You lock your front door behind you and head out to the grocery store.

Stepping inside the supermarket you immediately start gathering what you need not wanting to spend more time than absolutely necessary in the store. "Okay I've got the drinks, protein bars, a bit of candy... as a treat of course... there's just a few things left to get looks like." You begin to push your cart towards the ramen aisle rechecking your list as you walk.

As you round the corner however, you see a tall, lanky person with light pink hair tied in a very disheveled messy bun, face mask, sweatpants, and a t-shirt. 'He looks like toast..' you think to yourself but quickly push away the thought in your brain telling yourself there's no way that could be possible... that's a one in a million chance that it actually is him. You let out a sigh and resume gathering your groceries. 'Pssh how crazy would it be if that actually was Toast though? Like oh surprise surprise your internet crush actually lives in the same town as you! What kind of fanfic situation would that be?' You let out a tired sad chuckle at the wishful thinking as you browse the cup noodle options.

To your surprise the man comes closer to grab a cup noodle off the top shelf. Out of pure curiosity or blind hopefulness You look over at him trying to get a better look at his face to in hopes of identifying the familiar stranger but not to much avail, his bangs and his mask obscure too much to get a definitive answer on this person's identity.

'It's just the lack of sleep getting to me. There's no way that's actually him.' Bitterly you thought to yourself but you couldn't seem to quell your growing curiosity so you decide take a leap of faith. There's one more way you could get some confirmation without embarrassing yourself and calling a complete stranger a bread product. "Uh that ramen is it any good?" You ask hoping for a verbal reply instead of a hum of affirmation.

"Hm?? Im not sure I haven't tried it yet.." a pause of silence ensues a realization hits him. His eyes widen in shock as he casts his gaze downward to your face. It seems he's been snapped out of his sleep deprived haze but also looks like he's seen a ghost. "(Y/U/N)??" He says it before he can stop himself. 'Fuck.' They stare at you in disbelief for a brief moment.

You're speechless you can't believe he's here in the flesh and blood standing right in-front of you... 'that's him I'd know that voice anywhere that's definitely him.' from what you can see of him he's even more beautiful in person. His long pink hair, those long wispy eyelashes... he's so tall... wow you knew he was going to be tall but- wow wow wow he really is super tall. You're so taken aback by the whole situation playing out in-front of you right now you fail to find the words to say... 5 seconds of awkward silence has now passed.

Toasty taking the lack of response as his cue to leave he turns a bright shade of red at his perceived mistake. "Oh. I uh I'm sorry, wrong person. You just reminded me of someone." 'Idiot! idiot! idiot! Of course it isn't them! What were you thinking?! You just made an ass of yourself back there!' He begins to quickly turn around and leave mentally cursing himself for the awkward situation he caused.

"W-wait!! NakedToaster!!" You hurriedly call out as he attempts to make his escape. Out of pure adrenaline or lack of sleep, probably a mix of the two you snap out of your daydreaming and grab the mans arm. You can't lose him again. Not when he's right here.

'Wait.. Nakedtoaster?? That's me!? It can't be surely not but, how would they know that if it isn't them?' His thoughts scramble as he struggles to process all that is happening. "this can't be real... is that really you? (Y/U/N)" He faces you once more as you pull down your mask briefly to confirm that it is. 'Holy fuck. HOLY FUCK! it's them! It's really them! I.. I can't believe it they're right here.. h-holding onto my sleeve...' excitement, embarrassment, elation come flooding into his brain all at once he thought he'd never see you again but you're right here!

"It's me... it really is.. I can't believe you're here standing right in front of me." Tears well in your eyes as you think about all the sleepless nights you spent searching for him to no avail.

"I can't either to be honest..." his voice is shaky as he lets the reality sink in. No matter what he's never letting you go again if you'll have him. "OH! Uh may I give you my phone number? So we can stay in contact and all you know?"

"Yes!! Yes of course!" You quickly remove your phone from your pocket and hand it to Toast so he can put himself in as a contact. "So uh.. would you like to grab coffee together?? Maybe? I know theres a really cozy quiet cafe in town that opened a couple weeks ago.. I saw it on Social media if you're interested?" Toasty's ears redden from the proposal of a date as he enters in his contact information.

"I'd love to." He smiles handing the phone back to you. His heart feels like it might explode at any second from just looking at you. You're so much cuter in person and he thought this day would never come. "Shit.. my heart is beating out of my chest.." He says breathlessly.

"Mine too.. would Saturday at 10:30am work for you?" You put your phone away once again and smile at him. Trying to project as calm of a facade as you can to avoid tackling him in a bear hug in the middle of the grocery store and professing your love to him right then and there.

"Sounds perfect..." it doesn't matter if he had an important meeting that day for work because it just got cancelled. "I'll see you then I suppose.. can I just say.. you're uh. Even more attractive in person." What you can see of his cheeks have turned a bright cherry red and you're sure yours match.

"You are too Toasty." You smile at him once more. "Would you like to hang out while I grab the rest of my groceries? There's only a few items left."

Toast gives an enthusiastic nod and gently grasps your free hand. "Is this okay?" They ask unsure of themself and not wanting to make you uncomfortable.

You interlace your fingers with theirs and nod "this is perfect."