when there is no hope

part i of forever

                Hello,I am Erick i am fifteen a freshman in highschool who is bi pan gay all of the above because i dont have time to figure anything out because of to many depressing moments in my life that cannot control and can get out of hand.

                 First of all i was a mistake i wasnt ment to be born my mom wasnt supposed to have any more kids according to the doctor but she ended up having me.And so i was born born into the life of misury for after my birth my mom lost her job and thats when all the problems started to happen economically and emotionally.We moved to my grandmothers place while my dad tried to make a living in the states and there only more problems came for my grandmother kicked us out of our own house why because we were struggling to pay the fucking rent,So there we went off to el paso were we ended up living in a cockroach infested home very small sleeping on the floor until my dad would come to help us out.

                  That place took a great place in my memory. Yes,it was horrible living conditions yes, many bad events happened to my family and i while we were living there but this horrible took most of my childhood events that made me what i am now.And that may not be to much but it is something like they say "it builds character".And boy do i have character now.