Beomgyu-centric One-shots

•Soogyu•

Slight angst

I know I said goodbye and baby you said it too, but when I touch him I feel like I'm cheating on you. I thought that I'd be better when I find someone new, but when I touch him I feel like I'm cheating on you.
(Cheating on you by Charlie Puth)

Soobin is a mess, after 2 years he still hasn't moved on from his ex-husband. He knows this but won't admit to it. It was his fault after all. He's the one who was caught cheating, he made the mistake that led him fall into the deep pit of misery.

-flashbacks-
Beomgyu has been busy, for months. Goes to work at 7am sharp and comes home at 10pm and beyond. He always tells me he loves me but, short hugs, kisses and words aren't enough. I'm not sure but I feel like he has shunned me away. I'm at a bar to relieve my sadness. (That's not the only relief you'll have)

I'm too drunk, but there's this girl, she's pretty. I know I shouldn't but... I can't think straight. I led her to Our home and the mess happened. Beomgyu came home earlier than expected. The drinks in my stomach washed out and I was sane than ever. The girl left after seeing the situation.

"So this is what you've been up to while I'm away?" Beomgyu scoffs, tiredness etched in his features. "I'm sorry— I was drunk—" "Oh for fucks sake what an original excuse" He rolls his eyes at me as tears slowly flowed in his messed up state. "I just felt lonely, you've been busy for months and I need you too."

Beomgyu flared up, "REALLY?! THATS THE REASON?! YOU COULDVE TOLD ME! I WAS BUSY WORKING MY ASS OFF TO EARN MONEY SINCE I WANTED TO SURPRISE YOU FOR A TRIP TO PARIS BUT THIS IS BULLSHIT." Beomgyu threw a vase on the floor. He was tired, crying, I don't like that. "I'm sorry gyu—" "Don't fucking call me that." My breath hitched, "I-I'm sorry Beomgyu... Please, let's fix this hmm?"

"I'm leaving, let's take a break" He said as he walked back out to his car. I chased him out the door, begging.

2 months, 2 months passed before Beomgyu talked to him. He missed Beomgyu, so much. "I'm sorry" Beomgyu croaked, "I can't do this anymore, I thought I'd be ready but all of it came back when I saw you." Soobin looked up to see his love, broken because of him. A damage he caused. Beomgyu sighs as he wiped his tears and looks up. "I'm sorry, but we deserve someone new. I love you Soobin but it's too much."

"Let's get a divorce"

-end of flashbacks-

2 years later Soobin is still unable to move on. He tried with some others but it didn't last long, never hooked up with anybody or even had a one night stand. He still loves Beomgyu.

And here was Beomgyu standing in front of him in a coffee shop, he looked healthier, happier, it looks like he grew into someone new, but it was still Beomgyu. "H-how have you been, Beomgyu?" He stuttered, "I'm alright, got the CEO position of my father since he decided to retire, which is stressful but I'm happy since the company is striving." I know, Soobin would've said, "That's great, I'm happy for you."

Beomgyu could see something in his ex-lover's eyes, he knew everything about him, going from best friends to lovers then exes. Soobin's eyes showed longing, sadness and regret. He made the right decision, breaking up, to rebuild himself and grow. He could see that Soobin grew too, much more thoughtful, bashful, and reserved. Beomgyu hasn't moved on.

They decided to be friends, again, it was a waste of friendship after all. These months, they've been alright, together. No one came into the picture, not that anyone would bring someone in when they're still mostly inlove with eachother. But Soobin can't do this, he can't keep pretending he doesn't love Beomgyu, he needs him, back in his arms. And Beomgyu seems like he wants that too.

"I can't do this." Soobin blurts out. "What?" Beomgyu says puzzled. "I can't keep bottling up my feelings, I'm still and will always be inlove with you. I've hurt you so bad but I can't let you go." Soobin cried, "Not when I feel like I have a chance. Please, let me make it up to you. I swear I'll let you see that I'm better and not the old Soobin. I love you." Beomgyu was tearing up, he glances up in the sky an airy chuckle thrums out. "I can't say I've moved on, so I'll let you. Make it up to me until I say I love you too."

Soobin stayed true to his word, and Beomgyu is just one flick away back into his arms. They were on a hill, watching the city lights. "I, Choi Soobin—" "What the hell are you saying?!" Beomgyu exclaims "It's a confession— wait did you think I'd do that wedding thing?" Soobin muses, "Ah, I love that day... A stressful but beautiful event." Soobin says and looks over Beomgyu, "I wish we could do it again... But I want it to be forever."

"I love you... I love you... I love you..." Beomgyu said as he hides his tear stained face in Soobin's chest. "I love you so much Beom... And I'd go to hell and back just to be with you."

"I, Choi Soobin, take you, Choi Beomgyu, to be my lifelong spouse. I will support, honor, and cherish you through all the circumstances we may face, and I will never stop celebrating our love."

"I, Choi Beomgyu, take you, Choi Soobin, to be my lifelong spouse. I will support, honor, and cherish you through all the circumstances we may face, and I will never stop celebrating our love."

"We have joined in this wedding before, but it had a few bumps that made us realise we needed to grow individually in order to be together, again in this ceremony. I have done the most hurtful thing to you but you have forgiven me so easily and I am thankful that you have given me another opportunity to show you that I love you and that no one can replace you in my heart and soul. Choi Beomgyu I hope we see the world together, I recommend Paris," the guests laughs, "I want to be there for you at your worst and at your best like it has been 5 years ago."

"We may have a past that will haunt us but I believe that it won't hurt us if we are together in this world. I knew I was at fault too, so Choi Soobin! I promise to be a better and attentive husband who will listen to all your concerns just like how we did in high school. You will always be my first and last love, my gay awakening," a smack from Soobin, "My everything. I will always love you, even in bitter or sweet memories, I'm not letting you go. We'll explore the world but always remember I am always at home with you."

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Kinda sucks but online class is eating me up but I need to endure 'cause it's almost ending. I am alive, I want to write but sched is a mess.