Will he

chapter 30 - farewell, my beloved

note: this chapter contains both pov's so don't get confused midway, I will mark when each start, enjoy :)

Pov: Eliza

I hate this.

I hate this bullshit going on between Carter and me. 

What the fuck is going on?

My head was throbbing, my face was tear-stained, & my mind was a fucking mess of thoughts and emotions, and here I was... getting ready to go out. 

Cole called me and told me to meet him at the diner, apparently something really urgent. 

I take a shower, change into a casual outfit, sweatpants, and a crop top... It's just Cole, I couldn't be bothered to dress up properly. 

"Leo! I'm going to the diner to meet Cole, I'll be back in a few" I call out to Elliot who was currently out on the basketball court. 

"Oh- OH! Okay, have fun" He gives me a weird smile as I make my way down, have fun?

"What fun?" I scoff and he lets out a small chuckle, is there something he isn't telling me?

"You'll see, you know I care about & love you so... yes. And wonderful outfit choice by the way," he sinks a three-pointer and judgingly looks me up and down, I roll my eyes.

"Don't be an ass Leo, It's just Cole" I assert, making Elliot give me a side-eye. 

"You know," He picks up the basketball and jumps to dunk it in, how the fuck does he do that so easily?

"Carter will be there," he completes his sentence and I immediately wished he never did. 

"How do you know that?" I cross my arms and lean against the patio door, he just gives me a dumb smirk and gets back to training. 

He shrugs, I decide to refrain from getting more pissed, I grab my phone and leave. 

The second I sat into my car, every single fucking thing that went down with Carter came into my mind, I gave in to all the memories. 

I lean my head back onto the headrest and surrendered to my thoughts, all his words, his tone when he said them, his eyes... fuck. 

They weren't the same, he wasn't the same, we weren't the same anymore.

Every fucking thing changed. 

It all imploded, he was right. 

I knew this wouldn't end well and it didn't, now I'm suffering the consequences. 

He was right when he said- "Your love is scaring me, you know soon, the day we implode and break up, causing everything to crash in our way, you'll know that I couldn't care less."

That day is most definitely going to be today, there was and never is going to be a good way to end it between Carter and me. 

We're just bullshit at this. 

I'm bad at this, everything that comes to him, the feelings, the fear, the love, it's all too much. 

Both of us avoided it until we both gave in, and he was not lying when he asked me not to fall in love with him. I shouldn't have.