mad at myself (rhink)

a love like war

We met in 1984, on the first day of in 1st grade. We were 6 years old and we were both hold back from recess.

Link and I had to color unicorns. We just started talking en became friends. Best friends.

Sometimes memories like that just come to my mind while lying awake next to the love of my life: Jessie.

Jessie is beautiful and nice and smart and caring and funny and just perfect.

We met when she was 18 and I was 21. It's a long story of how we started dating but it turned out alright.

A wife, two kids, a best friend and a job I love; I have everything a man can wish for.

Yet I can't sleep. There's this weird feeling like something misses, but what could that be?

The next morning I wake up to the sound of Shepherd and Locke, my children, running around the house.

Jessie is not in bed so she is probably with the kids.

I close my eyes and try to remember my dream. Link and I sitting on a couch, talking. That's it, that's my dream, nothing more. Just us talking.

I get my notebook from under my pillow and write down everything I remember. Just as I close my notebook Jessie comes into the room.

"Good morning handsome", she says as kisses me on the cheek.

I smile and say: "You look beautiful today!" I did not lie, Jessie looks beautiful with that flower dress and her hair looks amazing. It kind of reminds me of Link... What? Jessie smiles at me.

"Thank you. Do you want some coffee?"

"I always want coffee", I joke. Jessie laughs and we walk to the kitchen to make some coffee and have breakfast with the kids.

"Maybe we can talk about horses on GMM since Link loves them", I mumble to myself while trying to come up with ideas for GMM.

Just as I'm about to give up and close my laptop I come up with an idea. We can talk about fanfics! The mythical beasts write a lot of them!

I begin to write the episode. "We can make it a game: I describe a fan fiction and Link has to guess if it exists or not", I started to mumble again. I should stop doing that.

Maybe this is a weird idea. I mean like, it's just weird. The mythical beats are crazy for thinking that Link and I are in love. They have this thing called 'rhink' and it's just weird. Maybe I should check out what the mythical beats have been up to.

"let's just search for rhink on Google images." I mumble again.

That was a mistake: drawings of us kissing, drawings of us cuddling, photoshoped pictures of us kissing, screenshots of us staring at each other, screenshots of us hugging, photos of us smiling at each other, covers of fanfics and screenshots of our kiss.

If you have to believe Google, we are madly in love.

We are not, we are best friends.

Suddenly my phone buzzes, waking me up from my thoughts: Link.

"Hi!" Links exited voice was one of the best sounds in the entire world to me.

"Hi buddy!" I say while deleting my internet history.

"Wanna come over?"Link asks.

"Yeah sure. See ya in a bit"

"See ya". Beep. "Now I just have to get my laptop and get out of here".

Age 12

"What's wrong", Link asks, "are you okay?"

"Yeah", I answer.

We're having a sleepover and I just woke up hard. Mom says it's normal for 12 year olds, but it's still embarrassing. How am I supposed to fix this?

"Do you have a boner", Link asks.

He saw it! I did not know what to say, I just stare at Link. Embarrassed.

"It's okay. I have had it too." Link says with his sweet voice.

"Really?"

"Yes. Now that the subject is open..."