24th of december,1979
I woke up at 6,bells ring everywhere, i completly forgot tomorrow is christmas day, i got out of the bed counting my steps to the kitchen afraid of waking up my dad so early he came back home late last night he seemed so tired.
Dad and I have been living in a small house far away from the city. On the fridge i found a small note that includes a code of 11 numbers " 897-3504-2761" i didn't get what those numbers mean i took the note put it in my school bag and i cooked some scrambled eggs for me and dad.
Suddenly, i heard steps coming from the back , dad? He woke up now! That's weird.
He sat on the table took his plate silently and started eating without saying a word. I had a healthy relation ship with my dad 4 years ago but not anymore i lost all his trust when i was in my 14th and here i took my first shot of drugs. It started with a shot now i can't survive the day without at least 7 packs. I don't know why i was taking drugs to escape the life? To forget the past? To kill the pain inside me? I can't answer these. I took my bag and i went out on my way to school.
I had to go wait for my boyfriend Jerome first .Jerome and I have been dating for 2 years now.We first met in a friend's house i fell in love with him without even knowing his name i was too obsessed with him since i saw him for the first time and the best day of my life was the day he asked me out. I was too attached to Jerome even though he was so toxic for me. He has type of anger issues he used to abuse and hit me so hard when he was mad. But i couldn't leave him. He was my weakness,and my first love even after all what he did. I never doubted in his love for me.
