💌love~note💌

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i never thought i'd be in this position.

standing here.

considering jumping.

ending it.

quite pathetic ain't it? also quite sad.

this is my last option.

to get the slightest taste of freedom.
happiness you would say.

~~flashback~~

i look down at the note i had wrote. a love note. i slip in into the envelope, sealing it with a heart sticker. i set put it inside of my backpack and start to head to my bus stop for school.

i've been crushing on this girl..
no, im in LOVE with this girl.
although i dont think shes gay.

i day dream of her on the way to my bus. she had a strawberry pink wolfcut, the way it swayed in the wind. the way she did tiny little hops in every step she took.
all of it,
was perfect.

i arrive at the bus, its here already.

i hop on the bus to see her.

i feel my face go red and cant help myself but stare at her as i walk but.
harmless right?
well that was until she looked back.
our eyes lock.
we stay like that, with our eyes locked for a bit.
well thats until the bus driver yelled at me to sit down..

she pats her seat next to me gesturing for me to sit.

i cant..
i can...
but i just cant.
but its rude to not.

i have to.

i take my seat down next to her. aware my face heated up.

"hey! im saphire! whats your name?" she asks me.
"oh- u-uhm- r-rose!" i stutter our
"thats a cute name! your cheeks are rosy just like your name!" she giggles.
"t-thanks! your name is saphire? howcome your hair is pink?" i question
"never thought about that? i could dye it blue just for youu?~" she says in a jokingly flirty manor and boops my nose.
"heh, well its your choice!"

we sit it silence. but it was more comfortable silence then awkward.

"hey, uhmm could i tell u something" she asks
"oh, of course!" i saw getting caught off guard.
"never mind.."
"oh.."

we sit in silence. this time awkward silence.

"wanna be friends?" she asks
"of course!" i reply.

———
thats where it all started.

we made many memories which just made me fall for her more.

and more...

and more.

we watched the stars.
went on dates, in a playful manor, such as movies.
we went to the carnival.
we told each other secrets we've told no one else.
we cried in each others arms.
she gave me her hoodie on a cold night.
we cuddled in bed while watching movies.
everything gave me butterflies.
we became best friends. although i wish we were more.
my feelings just grew and grew,
i would say like a flower, but it was more like a weed.
i got jealous over anyone talking to her.
she was mine.
it was fate.
we were soulmates.

at the time i still had the love letter with her name tucked away. but this time in my closet.

she was stealing one of my hoodies, till she found the note.