Barely Holding On (OcxOC Naruto story)

1~ The News

TW~ Character death and panic attack in this chapter

~Rino POV~

When I got the news all I could do was just stand there. I wanted to scream, or cry, or do something, anything. Instead I just stood there with my throat swollen and dry. I couldn't speak even if I wanted to. How could this happen? Who did this? Who let her go out on that mission? My head was racing with a million thoughts at once, I couldn't breathe, and got so overwhelmed that I just fell to my knees, and layed on the ground. I didn't move for a while, just laying on the floor of the hokage's office, overwhelmed with the shock of the news.

While just laying on the floor my thoughts started to race even more. I mean how could she just die like that? She was such a skilled ninja I didn't think anyone could beat her, but I guess I was wrong. Now I didn't know what I was gonna do. Mom was dead, she died during an explosion by some rogue ninja 13 years ago. 

Dad isn't ever around, and when he is he's drunk and no good for anything. Now Jules is dead and I didn't feel like going on, I felt so helpless.

And Kailo is still dead, and has been for 3 years. That was the one that hurt the most. 

I mean I guess I had Julo, Jayra, sensei, Orini, and of course Ash, but they weren't even close to the same as Jules was to me. She is, I mean was, my big sister, the one person who would protect me from dad, and his violent outbursts, and the only person who dare stood up to him. Now she was gone, and I wasn't strong enough without her.

I was snapped out of my thoughts by lord Konohamaru saying that Jules sent a scroll over with very important intel that was from the mission. I lifted my head slightly to let him know I was listening without having to do much because I didn't feel like doing anything at this point. I put my head back down as he started to talk.

"The intel your sister gathered helped us exponentially in tracking down those rogue ninja." He said, "I sent a team of Anbu to go hunt them down, and all of them have been caught." I grunted to let him know to continue, and he did. 

"Also your sister left some final words for you, Rino." At that I lifted my head and looked at him, as he stared back at me with half pity, half concentrated eyes. "Dear Rino," he continued. "If your reading this that means that my mission was successful, but it was at the cost of my life. I just wanted to let you know that I love you so much, more than you can ever imagine, and I never intended on leaving you, especially like this, and I'm so so so sorry that I didn't get to tell you this in person. Be strong I believe in you. Make sure to do your best on your missions, and learn to open up to your friends, they're there to support you, especially through this time, and tell Julo how you really feel, I'm sure he shares the same feelings. Make sure to take good care of Ash and take care of Zel for me, he already loves you so it shouldn't be too hard, and give him the love and affection in my place for me. This is getting a little long so I'll try to wrap it up. Just know I'm so proud of you, I always will be, and I know you'll be an amazing ninja, I love you so much and I'll always look out for you no matter what. Goodbye, little Tokage I'll see you again someday, just don't rush to join me, and I know you'll be happy again, just give it time. I love you like the stars, and I always will. Thanks for being the best little sibling ever- Suta."

 With that, one small tear streamed down my face and hit the floor. I knew if I let anymore out and started crying, I wouldn't ever be able to stop, so I held it in as I took in her last message to me. I finally sat up and looked at lord hokage, as he just stared back at me. I then stood up, and lost all control.

"How the hell did you let her go on that stupid mission! Why?! You should've known that this would happen, but you sent her on that fucking mission anyway! People aren't just some things you can sacrifice! There are people that if they die others will get hurt by it! Why?! Just tell me why Please! I just want to know." I yelled as I started sobbing, collapsing on my knees again. 

As I looked up I realized my sight in my left eye seemed a bit different, but I just brushed it off thinking it was because my head was spinning.

"I'm sorry, Rino."

Sorry if that was bad it's my first time attempting to write fanfiction. I hope you liked the first chapter I tried my best :). This is a bit longer than what most of the chapters are going to be. Anyways have a good rest of your day/night and thanks for reading. Also I will update whenever so it will probably be very inconsistent.

~Z

Total word count: 917