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I threw anything I could get my hands on around my room. I was angry, hurt, broken— I felt like my world was crashing around me.
Everything I thought about my 'relationship', my marriage was all a lie. A facade at most. How crazy it is that people really live a double life. Hiding so much behind a closed off door, acting as if it's all peaches and cream.
In this very moment I was loosing my mind. "Bebé por favor cálmate." (Baby please calm down) I ignored my mother's pleads and continued to trash the room. Grabbing our wedding photo and smashing it to the ground. I was letting out all my pain.
"How could he do me like that mami? After 7 years!" I screamed out through the tears.
"No te culpes cariño. Esa fue su decisión y obtendrá su karma, créanme. Ella no se salta a nadie." (Don't blame your self sweetheart.That was his decision and he will get his karma believe me. She skips no one.) I listened to her talk and finally felt myself starting to calm down. I stood looking around the room while trying to catch my breath.
"Necesitas averigura qué vas a hacer a partir de rate momento." She said rubbing my back (You need to figure out what your going to do from this moment on.)
I knew she was right. I needed to make a decision on what imma do next. Was I going to stay or leave? I had no clue but I needed to figure it out quick...
—— Later That Day ——
My bags were packed into my truck. All thanks to my mom and best friend Ariana because I wasn't strong enough to do it.
I made the decision to walk away. The relationship had so many good times but so many more bad times. I couldn't keep living in hope that everything would work out.
It wasn't going to and I had to accept that. "He didn't deserve you from the beginning and he still don't deserve you now. I always told you that you were too good for him! Way too good!." My best friend said as she pulled me into a hug "You can give all that love to yourself, your god baby and your next man who's gonna be sent from heaven! You are an angle doing gods work he will bless you for sure!." She assured me and those words were just what I needed.
Ariana gave tuff love. She didn't care if it was going to hurt your feelings at all. If it needed to be said to help you she was gonna say it, and it was only coming from a place of love. She told you what you needed to hear in a straight forward way and I loved her for that.
I took one last look at the last 7 years of my life before closing the door and closing that chapter to my life...
