spent and silenced

9 - do i wish to know?

你能留下来吗？ { 并不真地。操你自己。我想要什么？ } 伤心，真的。拔河比赛，直到我累了，掉进泥里。 {这比我预期的要深。思绪苍白而模糊。} 

请勿触摸。它会燃烧你。也被称为他妈的自己！我不想认识你。我们还能是陌生人吗？ {这真的是我想要的吗？也许它会停止。 } 伤心，真的。但我真的很想了解为什么会这样？

나는 그것을 이해하고 싶지 않습니다. 블라인드 듣기.

[eng translation]

can you stay? { not really. fuck yourself. what do i want? } sad, really. tug of war until i got tired and fell into the mud. {this is deeper than I expected. thoughts are pale and vague. }

do not touch. it will burn you. also known as fuck yourself! i don't want to know you. can we still be strangers? {is this really what i want? maybe it will stop.} sad, really. but, do i really want to understand why this happens? not at all.

i don't want to understand. blind listening.

they threaten to surface as i push them back down with fervor, kicking and thrashing.

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havent written in a while so have this piece of shit

i think this one was more vent than poetry but !! idc !! my book my rules 😍

i literally just ran it through google translate so the other languages are probably wrong but i wanted the symbolism,,,,

this was half what i felt when i got a concussion half somethingelsethatimnotsayingherebcno!!