Olivia Morris: The Days Go On

15th of Nobember, Sunday

"do you wish I was someone else?" I turn my face from the ceiling to his "yes" "do you wish I was someone else?" he asks, finally looking at me " no," I answer with exhaust, "I wish I was"I turned my back to him and laid there facing the wall. He wanted to say something, but I cut him off."We should go to sleep."

I watched his clock and waited about an hour before I got up. I put my clothes back on I knew the answer and walked over to his desk to get my backpack. I knew the answer before I asked I left his room and closed the door I was only asking for confirmation on something I already knew I went through the back door, got my bike from behind his back yard and went home.

\Asking was a mistake on my part. I could have pretended there was a possibility, that I was more than myself. A hole to fuck. But I had to ask, and now we both know what I am. I got home around three my mom was asleep on the couch, so I couldn't walk up the stairs without waking her up. I went to the basement and slept on the sofa at least he had fun. I didn't do my AP Euro homework or start my English essay. if i'm being honest I'm not an option next to her. so how could he choose me. Who ever she is , I don't think i'm pretty enough to be that for him.

I went to sleep around five, woke up at six. I was ready by six thirty. He pulled into my driveway at seven. we didn't speak about it. I brought up my homework though. he laughed at me for not finishing my history homework. why didn't he say anything about me leaving. I asked him for his and I loosely copied his answers. what if he didn't notice? I try not to go word for word he's not the brightest. That would kill me, if he fucking forgot and just woke up. I know that's not possible but I still feel like its something he could do. He reminded me of our practice test as he parked in the drive way.

"don't forget to give me that back before fourth period". I forgot to give it back.