Forgotten Memories (Shoey)

Ch 7- Just A Little Something-Something

F*ck. This. Shit. Is there anything else to do around here, but sleep? It's been 12 sunsets since I've last relived a memory. Yes I know it's weird that I count time in sunsets, but that's the only way I can keep track of things and not get lost in time completely.

 It's very relaxing around here like I said before, but it's just too relaxing. You know what I mean? I need some conflict, some drama to entertain me. Welp. Guess I better climb the tree again to see what more random drama I find.

  I guess I should check out the next memory I stopped off at. The memory ended with Joey and I lying in bed together after we made up. That wasn't even scratching the surface of the pain I was going to deal with, trying to win Joey back from Sawyer. It was so very difficult to hide my jealousy, but I did it for Joey. I loved him and I was going to prove it to him no matter how much it stung my heart every time he said "I'm spending the night with Sawyer tonight."

  I don't even need to climb the tree to relive this memory...

  "Shane, you're not even watching the movie," Joey chuckles out, running his finger through my hair.

 "Yes I am." I whisper into his neck in between my kisses.

 "Oh yeah? Then what just happened?"

 "Drew Barrymore and Adam Sandler went on their first date."

 "No! That's not what happened at all!"

"Then why the hell is the movie called 50 first dates if they're not even going on their 1st first date?!" I exclaim, pulling away from his neck.

 "You need to watch the movie and actually watch the movie." He says shaking his head and smiling at my stupidity.

 "And you need to let me f*ck you and actually let me f*ck you."

 "Shane, it's only been two weeks since we made up and you want to f*ck already?"

 "Come on! It's been months since we've done anything. I just want a little something-something."

 "Just a little bit?" he asks, biting his lip and raising an eyebrow.

 "Just a little bit." I repeat before gently pressing my lips upon his. He places his hands behind my neck and leans back so I'm on top of him as I slip my hands into the back pockets of his jeans, squeezing his ass.

 "I think this is more than just a little bit." He says, pulling his lips away slightly with our noses touching.

 "I lied." I whisper. "I want a lot of bit."

 "You're a greedy boy."

 "I'm a greedy man."

 "You're a man, huh? Prove it."

 "Oh I'll prove it, alright." I say before slamming my lips back down on his. He slips his hand under my shirt as I tug at the hem of his jeans. Soon our pants are off and our shirts are in the corner of the room.

 Knockity-knock-knock

 "Ignore it, baby. They won't know we're home." I say as I kiss and bite his neck while the knocks on the front door continues. Who the hell is visiting us at ten O' clock at night anyways?

 "I have to answer it." He tries but fails to say without moaning. "It's probably Sawyer."

 "Sawyer?" I ask, immediately pulling away and sitting up.

 "Baby, don't act like that." He says, placing his hand on my arm. "I forgot he was coming over tonight. He said he has something important to tell me." He hops off the couch and quickly slips his clothes on.

 "I'm so f*cking tired of this Sawyer bullshit." I sigh, running my fingers through my messed up hair and rubbing my face in frustration. "I'm going upstairs.

 "Shane..." I ignore him and walk upstairs to the room. "I'll be back as soon as we're done," he shouts right before I slam the door shut. I plop onto the bed and pull the cover over my head, my eyes are shut tight but my mind is wide with worrying thoughts bouncing around in my head, wrecking me.

 I want sleep. I need sleep. I can't sleep. I won't sleep knowing that Joey is out in an intimate relationship with another man. My spirit refuses to rest until my fingertips feel the soft thumping of his heartbeat.  My soul refuses to ease until my lips feel the skin of his soft neck as he nestles against me. I refuse to sleep until I hear him whisper, "I love you" as he drifts off to sleep and know in my heart that he actually means it.

 ~

 "Shaney? Are you awake?" I hear Joey whisper as the door slowly opens. I ignore him and pretend like I'm sleep even though I haven't done anything, but stare at the ceiling since he left. He kicks his shoes off and climbs into bed behind me. I squint my eyes to look at the alarm clock on the nightstand.

 4:37 A.M.

 He's been gone since ten. That's more than six hours. I am so grateful that the lights are out so he can't see the silent tears slide down my face in the complete darkness.

 "Shane, I know you're sleep right now and you probably can't hear me, but I want you to know I'm sorry. I know this was supposed to be our night, but I made a promise to Sawyer beforehand and I can't break my promises. That would make me a hypocrite. I just want you to know that I'll always love you know matter what or who comes between us."

 And then that day. That very day I thought would be the worst day of my life turned out to be some pretty good news. I thought I lost Joey, but he said something that changed our relationship 180 degrees.

  "I'm going to break things off with Sawyer."

 "What?" I ask him, turning the other way to face him.

 "I guess you are awake." He chuckles.

 "Are you really going to end things with him?" I ask, not believing what I'm hearing. Is this a dream? Did I actually fall asleep and I'm not aware?

 "Of course." He says, gently placing his hand on my cheek. He wipes away my tears with his thumb. I can't see him, but I know he feels heartache from knowing I've been crying. "I want to be with you and only you. We still have a lot of problems we need to work thought, but I'm willing to try if you are." I just stare at him for an extended moment as a genuine smile begins to find its way onto my face.

 "God I love you so f*cking much." I slam my lips down onto his and grab his hips to pull him closer to me. He wraps his arms around my waist and buries his face into my chest. We both immediately fall into a peaceful, undisturbed sleep.