now or never ~ future everlark

6- Dinner

~ Katniss pov ~

I had been sat on those steps all day. I couldn't process what had happend this morning and all I could think about was peeta. I sat as the smell of cement ran past my nostrils. I sat as the pigs walked by the house, I sat as the children ran along the uneven cobbled road. I sat there all day, thinking.

I was in a mind of my own and to be honest, a slight state of delusion when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I screamed,
'GET OFF ME'

I saw peeta stood in front of me. He ran his fingers through his blonde hair awkwardly.
'I'm sorry katniss, I was trying to tell you to come inside, it's getting dark.'
I knew it was time, time to tell peeta what was up

'Look peeta, I'm sorry if I've been well, a bit off recently. My heads like a maze and I'm trying to find a way out that doesn't involve going absolutely mental.'
He looked at me in what I presumed was going to be pity, but instead a small smile running along his pink blushed lips.
'Me too love, I'm just happy you finally feel you can talk to me about it. I'm here for you, always.'

I felt terrible, it never came into my mind that peeta was obviously feeling the same, but those few words echoed through my ear as I walked up the steps, my hand in peetas. I felt safer than ever and that's when I realized how much peeta meant to me. I had to do something, a cheesy sentimental thing for him, just as he would do for me.

It's now or never katniss, now or never..

I talked to Effie over the phone for around an hour after I got inside. I sat in a cream colored cardigan and some black jeans. with buttercup in my lap I began discussing how to be sentimental with Effie but she had little to no interest in it at all. She just kept referring to how 'July 27th would give me some ideas'.

I stood up off the plump grey sofa and brushed the cat fur off my knees. The house felt cold and the street was feeling the effect of sundown. I checked my watch to find the time was 7:04pm, I was confused on how peeta hadn't began dinner yet. He always told me that if you eat at 6:45 your body shall not be physically hungry until 7:15. It was a strange note but something I always remembered.

I walked through to the kitchen slowly, pausing every once in a while to try work out any sounds of peeta being in the house. As I walked past the broom closet I heard murmurs of peeta and haymitch. I stood with a smirk on my face, giggling..

'7:30.....' '...night of her life..'
'Big reveal..' 'Effie..'

I only caught parts of there conversation but decided to announce my presence before I ruined any plans.
I coughed loudly, startling the two fully grown men stood gossiping with my mop.
'Peeta? Haymitch? What you guys up to in there?'
I had quite obviously embarrassed them.

'How much did you hear?' Asked peeta, I told him I had heard nothing, whatever it was seemed like he had put a lot of effort in and I was never one to rain on peetas parade.
then it clicked, this was my moment..
my now or never sort of moment. I was going to propose to peeta, but with what??