"WHERE ON EARTH HAVE YOU BEEN?! ALAM MO BANG NAG-AALALA KAMI SA 'YO?! WHY DO YOU ALWAYS KEEP ON RUNNING AWAY LALLAINA?! ANO BANG NANGYAYARI SA 'YO?!"
I just got home, and this welcomed me. Mom was mad, and dad was behind her, still mad, and silent.
"Wala kana ba talagang matinong gagawin?! Palagi kana lang bang magdadala ng sakit sa ulo sa 'min?! Yna you're almost 18! Grow up! Stop being so immature!"
"D-do you even know what happened to me today?" I couldn't look at them, as I started remembering what happened earlier "Do you even care, about what I feel? Do you even know that I'm your daughter?" Matapang ko silang tinignan dalawa sa mata "I got h-harassed mom, d-dad. He tried to rob me and threatened me with a knife" Biglang nag-iba ang mukha nilang dalawa kaya sarkastiko akong natawa "Do you even care if I got harassed?"
"W-who did this, when did this happen?!"
"Mom, please...stop acting like you care! Cause you don't! All you care about is that I become just like you. Perfect, really? Is that how you describe yourself? How can you be perfect when you never acted like a mom to me" sinampal niya ako pero hindi ako natinag at matapang parin siyang tinignan
"See how easy it is for the both of you to hurt me. Am I really your daughter? Or am I just another mistake?"
"Lallaina!"
"The both of you keep on pressuring me! You always make me do this and that, without even thinking of how hard it is for me. Because you both obviously don't care! All you care about is kung ano ang masasabi ng iba. Yun naman ang mahalaga sainyo diba? You act like your're perfect parents, when in fact you both are the worst!"
"You ungrateful child! You should be lucky I didn't abort you!" Mom shouted and that just made me laugh but it killed me in the inaide
"Maybe you should have just aborted me mommy, kasi wala ka sanang problema ngayon. But, you chose to let me live. So thank you, but no thank you. Binuhay mo lang ako para gawing robot ninyung dalawa. I'm also human too you know. Alam niyo dapat yun kasi parehas kayong doctor"
"Lallaina, tama na..." singit ni dad
"Tama narin kayo dad! Pagod na pagod na ako, pero may pake ba kayo? Wala! All you think is that I'm just a complete dissapointment at kahihiyan lang ang maidudulot ko sa pamilyang ito. When in reality, kayong dalawa ang nakakahiya. Two of the most well known doctors in the country, known as role models for younger generation doctors. Kung alam lang talaga nila ang ugali ninyong dalawa. So I'm really sorry if I'm such a dissapointment to the both of you. Hindi ko naman kasi sinadyang mabuhay sa mundong ito"
I couldn't face them anymore kaya tumakbo na ako papunta sa kwarto ko at nag lock ng pinto. The moment the door shut, I bursted into tears. Kumuha ako ng alcohol at kulang nalay ay iligo ko iyon. I put it all around my body like the trauma would go away. It felt like his hand was already imprinted on my skin and it was making me gi crazy. Parang mababaliw na.
"Get it off!" Nanggigigil na punas ko sa sarili, I was hurting myself but I wanted it to go away. I wanted the trauma to dissapear but it kept creeping back to mine. Parang nataramdaman ko parin yung patalim sa leeg ko. I was breathing heavily, as I cried on the floor, hugging both of my knees. Napatingin ako sa cellphone ko ng mag beep yun at nakitang nag message si Quen.
@quenlyle: I feel like I miss you already
"LIAR!" I threw my phone on the wall and washed it fall into pieces. I grabbed my heart and started hurting myself hanggang sa mahiga ako sa sahig. I'm going mentally crazy and it's not good. But no one can blame me.
