Je T'aime | Billie Eilish

deux

the 'first time'
mature warning lolll
i am so embarrassed

"can you come lay down with me?" i asked quietly. "mhm, i will, let me finish off this" lilou said nodding to the bowl of cereal in front of her. the girl loves her cereal, no matter the time of day. i nodded and trudged down to lilou's bedroom.

i flopped onto her bed, bringing my legs up to my chest.

after a few minutes, i heard the creak of the door open and the bed dip behind me. "hi, baby" lilou said quietly, laying down. i turned over to face the girl, looking up at her affectionately through my messy hair, "hi"

she brushed it out of my eyes and kissed my nose softly, causing it to scrunch up. i let my head fall into her neck, my eye lashes tickling her skin with every blink. lilou wrapped her arms around me protectively, her thumb caressing my soft skin where my shirt had rode up.

i sighed in content before tilting my head up to kiss her jaw.

"my pretty girl," lilou mumbled, trailing her nails up and down my back under my shirt. i smiled softly and continued to press small kisses under her chin. i heard the older girl let out a shaky breath, stopping her hands moving on my back.

she squeezed my skin and tilted her head further back, silently letting me know to keep going. 

my pecks and smooches moved down her neck, further down toward her collarbone. my hands crept up her shirt along her sides. "two can play this game," lilou said quietly, seemingly had gathered herself together, moving her hands further up my shirt.

"who said it's a game?" i replied, blushing slightly knowing it was a bold comment.

"oh?" 

we both stopped what we were doing. i looked up to the older girl who was looking down to me, a slight smirk forming on her lips. i brought my bottom lip between my teeth and giggled into her. "hey, don't hide from me," she scolded bringing my face back up.

she pressed her lips into mine affectionately, "is this what you want? hm?" she asked, breaking away every few seconds but always coming back with another lust filled kiss. 

lilou rolled me on top of her, my legs falling down beside her hips. 

i opened my mouth, letting the older girl slide her tongue in. her hands rested up my shirt on my sides where my skin was covered by my bra. i tried too keep my panicking at a minimum, but i was kissing the prettiest person ever, and i'd never actually made out with someone properly before.

lilou tugged up on my shirt, wanting to take it off, so i pulled back and swiftly peeled it off my body and threw it carelessly beside us. unfortunately the dimly lit room didn't hide my pink cheeks, lilou spotting them easily as she sat up on her elbows to take her own shirt off.

"have you never-?" she asked, a little out a breath.

"well, no and yes, uh, i had a boyfriend for a few months last year, but he only touched me over my clothes..." i trailed off, wiping some saliva from the corners of my mouth. 

"oh, okay. i'll be slow, and i was gonna be gentle anyway. that's if you wanna keep going...?" lilou said holding her shirt tentatively to her chest. i nodded, taking it from her hands and putting to the side. 

the parisienne pulled me back in by my loose necklace, re connecting her mouth to mine, moulding them back together effortlessly. "tell me to stop, please. if you need," she murmured into my lips.

i went to respond, but the girl dropped my necklace, wrapping her free hand around the cup of my bra, the other firmly placed on my hip. a small moan slipped my mouth, back into lilou's. i tried to deepen the kiss again, but i was playfully denied as the other girl smiled into it.