Thinking About You

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Hi! Okay. So this is my first time writing here on Wattpad (I have another story on here but I had this written for awhile). I normally post stuff on fanfiction.net but I wanted to try this out. But this story is a H2O Vanoss/ Vanilirous (or whatever you call it) fanfic. It is purely for fun and I mean nothing by it. Please enjoy!

---Delirious' POV---

Stars were scattered across the night sky as I got lost in my thoughts staring into the night sky. My thoughts centered on one person in paticular. The person I had lost just a few months ago. Although it felt like yesterday. I remembered every moment with him crystal clear. Those moments were the best of my life. Then I had to go and fuck everything up.

Stop it, Delirious! Evan messed up too! Do not blame yourself for this! I chastised myself and straightened up from leaning on my balcony. I sighed softly as a light breeze whipped my hair around. Evan. The name ripped at my heart like nothing else in my life.

Memories flooded me until his voice played in my mind and I broke. "Delirious. I-i lo- hate you. I h-hate you. You ruined everything." Tears streamed down his face and he turned and walked away.

The memory was a slap in the face and I could feel the tears falling freely down my face. I retreated from the balcony to my bedroom. I flopped down on my bed and buried my face into my pillow. This was the tenth night in a row I had cried myself to sleep.

I woke to the feeling of warm sand underneath me. What the-?

I sat up and noticed I was shirtless and in swim trunks. The sounds of waves crashing against land could be heard and I snapped my head up.

The beach?!

I shot up and dashed towards the water. I loved the water. I stopped at the water's edge and a felt the rush of water run over my bare feet. The sensation made me feel alive.

"You never told me how much you loved water."

I froze. I'd recognize that voice anywhere. I spun around. There he was. In all of his beautifulness. My heart skipped a beat.

"Evan?"I cried. He smirked. "Hey." He walked closer to me. "What are you doing here?" I asked him, trying to ignore the warmth I felt from seeing him.

"What do you mean?" He tilted his head like a confused puppy. Ugh he was so adorable. God I love him.

I rubbed the back of my neck. "Um. Well we haven't talked in about two months. How are we even here right now?" I looked back to the waves crashing around us. My smile was permanent being surrounded by this much water. My head snapped back to him when I felt his warm hands on my hips. Heat flooded my cheeks and I looked into his smiling eyes.

He leaned in close to my ear and whispered, "Don't worry about that. Just be here with me now." He kissed my cheek and all rational thoughts I had flew out the window. He pulled back from me and grabbed my hands. "Lets go for a swim." He nodded towards the water.

I smiled and became giddy. I raced to the water, pulling him with me. We were knee deep in the water within seconds. The sun and cool water mixed so well against my skin I felt like melting.

I was suddenly drenched with water. "What the-!" I looked over to a laughing Evan. "You bitch!" I splashed him back, harder. He cried out in between his laughter and splashed back. We battled for a little until I started treading water to chase after him.

Once closer to the shore he fake fell and pulled me down to the ground with him. I laughed with him. I felt like I was soaring high in the sky. He stopped laughing and pulled me to him. Our lips crashed together and water crashed around us. I must have died in my sleep because I swear I'm in heaven.

We pulled away and he beamed at me, "I lo-"

There was sudden blackness and I sat up in my bed. No. I looked around desperately. Dammit! My paradise had been lost. I touched my lips and smiled at the memory of his lips.

I frowned and grabbed my phone. 3:26 AM. So. It was all a dream. I should of known. Evan was gone. A drop hit my leg and I glanced down. Then I whipped the tears I hadn't even noticed away.

Snap out of it, Delirious. He doesn't deserve your tears.

I didn't believe myself, though. Out of everyone Evan was the one person that did deserve my tears. He helped me in so many ways. He saved me from myself. No matter how it ended or how much I missed him I couldn't deny that.

I sprawled backwards on my bed and stared at the ceiling. Do you miss me too? Do you even care? Or are you glad to have me gone?

He never loved you. A voice whispered in my head. I slammed my eyes shut. No. Please. Leave me alone.

Sorry. Your "Teddy Bear" Evan isn't here to help keep me away. You're gonna have to keep me out on your own.

I can't! I don't know how! I wrapped my arms around myself.

Of course you do.

An image of my old razor popped in my head. I shook my head furiously. No. Evan helped me get over that. I vowed never again!

He's not here now is he.

I wrapped a blanket around my self and forced my self back to sleep. Hopefully the next time I wake up it will be less painful.

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