Forbidden from the start

chapter 06

I haven't even realized that I had fallen asleep till  the loud noise of our front door woke me up .

I opened my eyes and my look fell right on my window. The light from before has now nearly disappeared , that meaning I've slept many hours .

I didn't plan to sleep , but thankfully I did because these days I'm not getting enough sleep thanks to anxiety and the new accommodation.

I get up and look at myself in the mirror.

I have puffy eyes and swollen pink lips . My hair is very messy and my head feels heavy, but that was probably the best sleep Ive got in days .

I grab my phone from beside me , seeing some text messages from Martha saying that she left to go to Kyle's dorm .

It must be some of those days that they exchange rooms .

I open my bedroom door and go to our living room , switching on the tv so there's some light in the room .

I feel my stomach growling so I decided to eat something . I haven't ate since last night, that we ordered pizza with Martha . If my mum knew my eating habits these days she would be here the next day with cooked food in containers for me .

After I ate two French toasts and drank a little bit of water , I decided that I wanted to go for a walk to clear my mind .

I brushed my teeth and washed my face , grabbed my bag and the pack of cigarettes I carry with me just in case I want one .

I didn't like cigarettes till I saw him smoke one .

Walking outside the hallway to the park I feel a chill passing through me , and I get the need to rub my hands on my forearms to gain some of the warmth back .

It's very lonely here today , maybe because it's Friday night and everyone is out having fun .

Tomorrow there's going to be a party that I've been invited to , but I don't know if I want to go . Yeah sure I said that I will go but I only did that cause Jacob doubted me .

He is very mysterious. One day he is talking to me , the other one he is not . And now the only thing that comes out of his mouth is sarcasm or indignity.

I take out my earphones and plug them in my ears . As I open my phone to put on some music I sit on the first bench I see in-frond of me that has an incredible view of the sunset.

I open my Spotify and press the fist song on my playlist, it being ; You Are the Right One by Sports .

As the song blasts through my earphones I grab the pack out of my back pocket, opening it up , retrieving a cigarette and putting it in my mouth.

I take out the black lighter that has a heart with gems on it - something I diy it when I was bored , and light up my cigarette.

When the first taste of it comes in my mouth, I take a big inhale holding it for a little bit , then letting go .

As I do I take my legs up , sitting leg crossed and shut my eyes , only the music in my ears bothering me .

I take a few deep breaths and smile to myself.

I feel the cold breeze hit my warm skin . I don't feel my earphones,it is like the music is the real background of the word .

Suddenly I feel a movement on my right side , that making me unplug one of my headphones and snap my head to my right.

" Does your brother know that you smoke , princess?"

Looking ahead on the view , with scrunched eyebrows and cigarette between his lips - that I guess it's mine - and his legs spread on the bench , is Jacob.

" Like you care " I say taking another drag of it looking on the opposite side of him

" I must care " he continues " I don't , but I must " I hear the sound of his cigarette burning and see the smoke from the corner of my eyes

" Nobody makes you look out for me " i fight

" Everyone makes me look out for you " he corrects
" My mum , your mum , your dad and your brother "

" But I don't want you to " I say now looking at him

" It's not really your choice , is it ?" He turns around facing me as well

His bright blue eyes seems more green in that lighting and I find myself looking at them for way too long till I decide to turn my face infront again .

" Look we can say you take care of me to them and be apart from each other " i murmur looking down on my crossed legs

" Can't to that " he brushes of

" Why ?"

" Your brother is gonna kill me "

" Oh fuck me " I say putting my hands on my face

" I'm afraid I can't " he returns with a chuckle

I look at him seeing him have a side smirk on his face , realizing what I said sounded like .

" I didn't mean it like that " i say straightening my back

He looks around then again forward like he is looking for someone.

" It's getting late why don't you go to your room ,huh ?"

" What are you my dad now ?" I say tilting an eyebrow

He looks at me with a serious face .

" Look Olivia , you can't just walk alone here having earphones in your ears and not listening to your surroundings . Its dangerous " he explains

I mean he has a point..

" That's why a have you , to protect me " I say in a sarcastic tone , a fake smile on my face

"I'm not gonna protect you "  he shakes his head slightly, his look cold to show me how much he means what he says

" Well that's too bad because I'm not planning on doing what you said . Besides that I'm pretty capable of taking care of myself " i say standing up " so if you'll excuse me "

I start walking to the direction of my dorm again , not saying anything else to him .

If he didn't care why is he lecturing me ? Is he afraid of my brother that much , or he is just trying to make me mad ?