My Comfort Ships | Haikyuu One Shots

Insecurity| IwaOi

"Iwa-chan... Let's go.." Oikawa said staring at his husband.

"Iwa-chan?" he said again getting no response

The spiker has been staring at their former classmate, carrying a sleeping baby on her arms. The lady lifted her eyes and nodded at Toru and Hajime.

Hajime smiled a little and dropped his eyes towards the baby again

Oikawa felt a knot on his chest seeing how his husband is so captivated to the baby. His trance stopped as the woman walked in front of them, smiling sweetly.

"I have noticed that you have been staring at my baby... Would you like to carry her?" she said

Iwaizumi's eyes glimmered with excitement as he opened his arms and slightly reached out for the baby.

The small child nuzzled herself into Hajime's chest, making the spiker, tears building up as he slowly hummed a sweet weak lullaby.

It's a sweet sweet moment, seeing how Hajime smiles and caress the kid on his arm

There is pain in Oikawa's heart which he couldn't put into words... so he just stared for the next minute, and stood abruptly gaining gazes from everyone on the tables near them.

"Hey, Toru.. What-" Hajime asked worriedly seeing how the setter is pursing his lips tightly

Toru doesn't want to gain more attention from anyone... reacting like this.. but.. the more he wanted to keep it to himself, more eyes started to drift towards him.

He tightly clenched into his fist... Hajime would want a baby.. of course... and Oikawa knew he couldn't give him that... The way Hajime lovingly cradle that baby, the way he smiles, the way his eyes brightens, and how Hajime's actions implies that he wants his own child...

Right in front of his husband.

"I.. I'm goin' home, Hajime.." Toru's voice broke addressing the former ace..

The setter quickly strode away from the reunion venue. Luckily enough, their apartment is just few minutes away. He walked feeling utterly hurt... He couldn't blame Hajime for wanting to build a family...

Oikawa's aware he couldn't give the only thing Hajime always wanted... a child...

His husband never demanded nor talk about it, but seeing how the spiker invested himself to a baby, makes Oikawa's heart clenched inside his chest.

His husband couldn't be happy and satisfied... with him alone....

Oikawa quickly opened the apartment door, walked into the bathroom, leaned on the door as he closed it, and slid down into the floor, eyes dusted with tears and pain..

His mind is full of questions... questioning himself... questioning why Iwa-chan even married him... why Hajime agreed to be committed with someone who couldn't bear a child... why would Hajime him in his life...

"What is Hajime thinking dating and marrying me?" he murmured

Oikawa buried his face into his knees, grabbing and pulling some strands of his hairs in frustration.

"You deserve so much better than this, Hajime...." he muttered completely unaware that Iwaizumi is just outside the door about to knock.

"T..Toru.. Hey. Are you alright?" he asked worriedly.

Oikawa lifted his head, and quickly covered his mouth trying to suppress all the feelings he have at this very moment.

"Toru.. What's going on? Open this door, please"

""L.. Leave me.. alone for now, Haji.. I.. I want some time to think..." Oikawa replied still slumped down into the floor.

"Think of what, Toru?"

"It's just... a stupid thought... Don't mind me.."

"Stupid? But that stupid thing bothers you. So what is it? I'm your husband.. you can tell me anything... We promised to share everything..."

"I have to think about it on my own... Please... Besides, you can mind your own business for now... and you don't have to think about me.. or care about m-"

"You're being unreasonable, Shittykawa! I always will care! I promised to love and protect you... Why can't you understand that-"

"BECAUSE YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL!" Oikawa snapped standing, still trembling and walked towards the tub where he sat and hid his face again

"Wha-... I.. I'm trying... I'm doing my best, Toru! Just let me... WHY AREN'T YOU LETTING ME?! WHAT THE HELL IS GOIN'-"

"Why the fuck did you marry me, Iwa-chan?!" Oikawa asked red from crying

"Huh?!? What kind of stupid question is that?!?! Because I love-"

"I... I'm not the one for you..."

"BULLSHIT! OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW! WHAT NONSENSE ARE YOU TALKING ABOU-" Iwaizumi yelled giving Oikawa a little whimper.

"Iwa-chan!!!!!! I couldn't give you a family you deserve...."

"Wha- You know what... I'm gonna break down this fucking door if you're not gonna let me in...."

"What?! Iwa-chaaann... No.. Please...".

But suddenly, the door swung open... revealing Hajime standing in the doorway... He stared at Oikawa who sitting in the bathtub, his hands wrapped around his knees and wearing a disheveled expression, and messy hair.

"I... Iwa-chan..."

In a mere second, Hajime is standing right in front of the tub, brows furrowed, hands on the hips.

"Care to explain what's going on, Toru?!?"

Toru looked away.

"Who are you to decide for who's the one for me?! I chose you and I always will choose you! You'll always be the one! What's so difficult understanding that?!" Iwaizumi said sitting beside his husband

Hajime pulled Oikawa for a hug, and the latter buried his face into Iwa's chest.

~To be Continued~