Barely Holding On (OcxOC Naruto story)

10~ Intruding Questions

~Julo POV

I woke up to find Rino still asleep in my arms. They didn't have anymore nightmares last night luckily. I waited for about 10 minutes before they woke up as well. I got up and looked at how dreamy their eyes were. I was snapped out of my daze by them sitting up, and staring me in the eyes. My face had to be redder than a tomato as they looked at me because they asked,

"Julo, are you feeling okay?"

Shit. Was it that obvious? "U-uh yeah"

"Well, ok," They replied as they just shrugged and got up.

We went to the kitchen, and I finally got the courage to ask what I had wanted to since last night. "Hey Rino, can I ask you something?"

Their face immediately changed, looking really pale. "U-u-um ok" was all they managed to say.

"I saw the scars on your wrist last night, and I could tell they were new. Please tell me why did you do it?"

As soon as I said that, their left eye changed, looking completely different. I was about to say something, but then they started yelling at me.

~Rino POV

As they said that, I felt anger and shame boiling inside of me, and I finally snapped, all my emotions that I'd bottled up over the last 3 years spilling out.

"Why the fuck is that any of your business. Just let me live my life, and you live yours without judging me for the stupid shit I do!" I was screaming in his face as I felt my emotions take over, and I felt like I was watching everything happen from behind someone else's eyes. "Just leave me the fuck alone, you don't understand anything, so stop pretending like you do! I have suffered my entire life. My mom died when I was 3. Then my dad blamed me for her death, and has beat me, and he did beat my sister, ever since I was 6! He's barely ever home, and when he is, he's always drunk, and he's always violent." I couldn't control what I was saying as I desperately tried to stop revealing everything I tried for the last 3 years to hide. It felt the same as that day in the forest, watching from afar.

"My lover died right in front of my eyes when I was 13! He jumped in front of a bunch of shuriken and kunai just to protect me! And everyone around the village has always blamed me and hated me because of it, and no one ever knew how much I was hurting! I was always Rino the useless guy who couldn't even save their own boyfriend when it mattered most! I loved him so much. He made me believe that life might actually be worth living, even for the small moments we spent together with no one telling us what to do, or how to live our lives. With him I actually felt free and I felt loved, and losing him was losing my will to live." Then came the sobs. "I still see his face in all the people, with those round, pale faces, and beautiful light blue eyes! His death replays over and over in my mind when try I sleep every night, and I hear his last words to me everytime it's quiet."

Julo just stood there, stunned.

"And now, my sister, the one person who promised she would never leave me, the only light left that was still burning inside of me, my Suta, my protector, is now gone, and I don't think I can go on any longer."

"That's why I can't be close to you because everyone who ever gets close to me just ends up dying, and I don't think I can lose someone else I care about. I can't stare at another grave just wishing I could've had more time."

I desperately fought inside my mind for control as I didn't want to end up hurting Julo, or worse losing complete control, and killing him, knowing that things could get bad if my emotions got out of control. But I ended up doing the complete opposite.

I couldn't think properly, still fighting for control, as I walked up to Julo, and pressed his soft lips against mine. He was so warm, and I didn't want to pull away, but I knew it was for the better. I was just going to disappear, and not let him get close to me anymore. I stumbled backwards as I pulled away, not being able to believe what I just did. I just turned, and ran towards the door. I looked back one last time to see his beautiful face before I left for good. 

Heyo. What up losers. I hope u guys are having a good day/night bc you deserve to. You're amazing. Don't ever let anyone tell u differently. Thanks for reading :)

~Z

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