In A Heartbeat

Chapter 8

Cold...
So ...so cold

My body feels so heavy and and so cold. I try to open my eyes and I couldn't. Something prevented me from opening my eyes. I start to panic and fret. What is this? Where the hell am I? I feel my heart begin to quicken and I'm shaken awake and to my surprise there sat Kane beside me. He's looking at me with subtle concern written all over his face. His dark eyes lighten to a light shade from the sun caressing his face. He looked otherworldly beautiful.

" you had a nightmare , what happened to you? You look almost pale" he asks me feeling my forehead with the back of his hand. I wince and try to sit ip straight but my head begins to pound. I heave back into the bed and Kane gasps.

" Ezra what the actual fuck happened to you?! Why is there blood under your head?" He gets up abruptly and makes his way over to my side of the bed and carefully lifts my head. I protest in pain. Unable to speak full sentences.

" Kane...head... hurts" I say. I see his face get firm.

I didn't understand why there was blood either I don't remember anything that happened last night. Did I drink too much and fall? I'm met with a fervent need to vomit. For some reason I don't have any control over my body , I can't move my head , and my limbs refused to muster up the energy to move. I feel the build up and there on my own bed in front of Kane I threw up all over myself. I felt gross. I begin to cry.

" It's okay Ezra , don't cry please I'll take care of this" he says and rushes to find some towels. I hear him make a call. I can tell he's scared because his voice is shaky and the smooth talker in him disappeared considering how much he's stuttering.

I feel the pounding behind my back and I close my eyes and force myself to calm down. What the hell happened to me? I don't remember anything that happened to me I just woke up in my bed in pain.

I hear Kane yelling my name and making sure I don't fall back asleep. I'm trying my hardest to stay awake but I just couldn't. I feel my eyes close and Kane comes and with quickness props me up and I protest in pain. He winces in agony from seeing me in pain.

" I'm sorry" he apologizes and kisses my forehead.  I feel myself slip away from reality after some time. I try to give Kane's hand a squeeze but I have no strength.

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I feel my heart quicken as I feel the blood on my hands and her body go limp. Trying to stay as calm as possible but I struggle. I might actually love this woman and I don't even know her that well and she might die in my arms. Flashbacks of the day I killed that boy come flooding back... my pulse quickens.

I see his blood splattered everywhere. The gun in my hand and I'm shaking. I remember hearing his moans while he lay on the ground life still inside him. He tried to reach for me and I watch in shock as he stopped moving completely. I begin to panic, heart is about to jump out my chest and my head begins to spin and I start to let out this blood curdling scream.

I feel that panic ride inside me now, I'm breathing heavy as a consequence my head starts to spin again . I look down at Ezra and I see her beautiful face almost lifeless . I'm in shock again. I begin losing control and begin to shake.

I am brought back down by the sound of paramedics coming up the stairs in a rush. They all start asking me if I'm alright and to explain what happened and I find it hard to speak. Everything was happening so fast I couldn't process.

" Sir, we're going to need you to make a statement. Are you in shape to answer a few questions" a paramedic asks me. His eyes furrowed in concern and pity.