I have always felt this kinda pain in me. Especially in the last months, weeks, days, hours and seconds. Last week everything exploded. Not in a good way. Like a bad had or situation explosion. Anyway, until last week I never thought everything could get worse. But yesterday I saw that it happened- the explosion- in myself. Maybe explosion is the wrong word. It's more like I'm tired. But not this type of being tired- like where you can sleep- more like a ,,I'm being tired of life". And the fact that you can't stop yourself from feeling this way is kinda scary.
