wet hair and seasonal crushes

you give me a migraine

"wake up, wake up, wake up- ALEX" Sirius shook me from my not so peaceful slumber. "Noooooo go aWaY" I said kicking my feet at him. 

"What's got your panties in a bunch" 

"Your brother" i mumble in my pillow, shit did i really say that, I mean this is pretty easy to play off. In books people always look like they're struggling so much to lie, it's not that hard just hide the struggle inside. Maybe that's just me being scarily good at lying.

"You need to stop fighting with him all the time, I mean he is a dick, but if he gives you a headache just stop talking to him" Easy for him to say, it's like me telling him to stop talking about fucking David Bowie. 

"Can you just tell McGonnagal i'm sick and i'm going to the hospital wing" 

"You bloody blow off" he sighed, exasperated.

 "No Sirius, my best friend, my bff for life, i am so very very sick, I can barely stand" I said sarcastically.

"I wanna see you stand up and out your bed to be sure your going to the hospital wing" he huffs, and looks at me with a look that said 'i got you' look.

I whined and put a foot outside my bed and lifted myself up, and a headache came to my head as soon as i was on my two feet. I think i stood up too fast. gosh i guess i wasn't pretending.

"You okay mate?"

"Yeah it think i just stood up too fa..." and i could feel myself falling, my vision blurring and with weird white spots in them and then...

black

I woke up with hushed whispers around me, "Mme. Pomfrey you must let us stay with Alexis"

"Last time i let you stay with Remus i found you singing David Bowie to him"

"We were trying to cheer him up" he whisper shouted. 

"It woke up every other patient in the room Mr. Black" Sirius of course. I decided to keep my eyes closed a little longer to hear what was happening.

"Not all you four can stay only one"

"No but Mme. Pomfrey he needs us all for moral support, James with the wits, Remus just to balance him out with his sarcastic responses, Me for the good looks and Peter for the niceness" He said without stuttering once.

"You are full of bollocks Pads" I said groggily, my voice breaking up. 

"ALEXIS" they screamed at me all at once. "oh my lord mates i appreciate your concern but can you close your shit buckets" So loud, so bloody loud. 

"Ok guys now that Mr. Zabini has woken up you can go to class" Pomfrey said hushing them away. "But-"

"no buts" haha butts. "Bye friends" 

Ok so turns out I am extremely sleep deprived, and have a throbbing migraine that hurts like hell. So they're gonna keep me overnight to be sure i sleep enough. Because unfortunately there is no potion to counter sleep deprivation. 

I got a few visits from each of the marauders, giving homework or moral support. 

At midnight i couldn't sleep anymore because i slept all day, so i read a book. Mme. Pomfrey was long gone and there was barely anyone in the hospital wing. 

Then i got bored out of my mind, so i just closed my eyes and thought about things, dumb things like ; When's the next exam period? I wonder if i try and stand up again i'll pass out? mhm, interesting, i'm gonna test out that theory. 

I put my two feet on the stone floor, it was cold but it felt nice because my feet were kind of moist because i was under the blanket. 

So i stood up with still one hand on the bed, it was a wobbly mess, and i kept falling back down on the bed. Every time i moved too fast my head would pound so i could never not wobble.

"be careful with that" Regulus, i could recognize his voice in half a second now. "I'm very careful don't you worry" He was behind me, so he walked up in front of me. 

"Need a hand" he extended his hand. "No i think i'll just lay back down."

As i said that i laid back down on the bed, never meeting his eye. "I heard what happened"

"I bet"

"Are you mad at me? You seem irritated with me" He said with a lower voice.

"I'm not mad"

"Is it my fault that you passed out"

"Kind of i guess" Well technically yes because i'm not sleeping because i'm overthinking everything.

"well i'm sorry, but are you mad at me" That is a question i can not answer right now.

"I am frustrated with you, i think that's the word"  Not exactly the right word but you get it. 

"Will you look at me" I don't want to look at him. 

"can you tell me what i did" It's selfish but i want him to see as much in me as i see in him. 

"Nothing specific, i'm in a bad mood, i need to sleep" half-lie, i am in a bad mood but i don't necessarily want to sleep but that might cancel him out. 

I close my eyes, i still haven't looked at him, and i'm not planning to. "I know why your mad at me" Of course he does him and his brilliant genius mind.

I tried to go to sleep and i could hear him sitting down on a chair next to the bed; Who fucking carried me from the dorm to the hospital wing??? That's besides the point.

Out of the blue i feel warmth on my hand, he took my hand in his hand, we've never done that. That's weird but comforting, he has slender fingers and they're bony but surprisingly soft. I don't know why that's surprising, but it is. 

I was pretending to sleep, so i didn't like use my muscles as a response to squeeze his hands. But i'm going to man up and i'm going to squeeze his hand.

I squeeze his hand back and lace his fingers with mine. I can smell his facial expression, it's one that says ; i knew you were awake you dick.  

He stroked the outside of my hand with his thumb, and we stayed like this for a few minutes t'ill he let go of my hand.

And with a quiet stumble and a press of lips he had planted a kiss on my forehead. That was also unusual, more intimate. 

I shot my eyes open and grabbed his wrists as he was walking away, finally looked at him in the eyes, gosh those eyes and planted a firm kiss on his lips, him slightly inching in to me. 

I disconnected our lips and thumped back down on my bed and pretended to fall asleep directly, it was a swift and calculated action, it's like i was never here.

"cocksucker" 

"Touché" i said groggily. 

He ran back to me on his way to the door and planted one last kiss on the crook of my lips. I swear if i had more energy i would've pulled him back for more but i was goddamn tired.

I slept like a baby that night.