Mending a Broken Heart

Remembrance

 "Hey babe, our song is on!" I squealed excitedly as I pull Michael from his spot on the sandy beach. He laughs and lets me drag him towards all the others who were slow dancing.

He tugs me close to him as we sway from side to side. My head lays in-between his neck, I heavily breathe in his sandalwood scent. I was floating on a love strung high.

 "I figured it out. I figured it out from black and white, seconds and hours. Maybe they had to take some time..." Michael gently sings to me. A smile slowly graces my face hearing his husky voice in my ear serenade me. This is were I wanted to be, nothing else could compare to this perfect moment. To this perfect man.

I bring my eyes up to his tell all green ones. My god he was so beautiful and all mine. My heart swelled as my eyes flickered all over his face. His sun kissed tan made his vivid green eyes stand out more than ever. His chestnut brown hair fell in his sight, it was definitely time for a haircut.

 "You and I, we don't wanna be like them. We can make it til the end. Nothing can come between you and I. Not even the Gods above can separate the two of us..." His hand rubs across my cheek as my favorite lines flow from his lips. Michael grins down at me, his dimples making him appear so childlike.

We dance until the song fades away and even then we continued to hold on to one another. Staring at each other like we were the only two at the beach party.

 "Lets take a walk." We shuffle out of the crowd, heading towards the tide. We walk quietly for a few seconds just letting the sand mush between our toes and the water crash on the bottom of our legs. Our hands were clasped between us swinging slightly.

"This is perfect y'know."

 "Yeah. I honestly don't want to leave."

"We don't have to. We could always leave everything behind and live on the beach." I joke while bumping my shoulder into him. Michael's laughs ring out into the night, the butterflies in my stomach go into a frenzy.

 "If only it was that simple Zo, if only."

After that we said nothing else and just enjoyed the sounds all around us. I would occasionally glance up at him and wonder how could I ever deserve a guy like him. Michael was wonderful, there was nothing off putting about him. He's smart, athletic, generous, friendly, and lovable. I was officially the luckiest girl in the world.

It was close to one in the morning when we decided to leave. The party was coming to a close anyway. Only a few of our friends still mingled around. We said our goodbyes and got into Michael's cherry red Mustang, his pride and joy.

 "I had a wonderful time tonight. All this makes me wonder what it's gonna be like after graduation."

"Nothing's going to change. We'll still be together. Still going to the beach and still be happily in love." Michael reassures me while grabbing onto my hand.

 "What about college Michael? You're leaving for California soon while I'm staying here in Florida. We'll be so far from each other, I don't know how I would survive." He sighs then glances towards me once I finish voicing my concerns.

"Look Zo..."That's all he got out right before we suddenly jerk to the right. It all happened so fast. My screams drown out the sound of crunching metal in my ears. My head bangs forward on the console and right before I black out I hear my love's voice.

 "Zoë...love."

Tears stream down my face as I recall that horrible day. My heart breaking more than ever.

"Zoë it's okay. It's okay, do you need a second alone." Dr. Raines question as she passes me some tissue. Right before I could graciously take the offer, my body broke down in heavy heart wrenching sobs.

Michael was gone, taken from me all too soon. My love was ripped from me all because some idiot had chose to have one more drink even though he was pass his limit and drove home.

My heart cried out for him. I cried out for him. Why couldn't it be me? Michael didn't deserve this. He deserved to live. The body shaking sobs brought me down to my knees. My thick black waves cover my face like my own personal mourning veil. I feel Dr. Raines wrap her tiny slender arms around me trying to calm me down, but it wasn't working. There were only one set of arms that could ease the ache and all the pain.

"Zoë! Zoë baby!" I barely register my mom's voice in the background.

"Go back into the waiting room Mrs. Daniels."

"No my baby is on the floor wailing and you expect me to leave? Are you crazy? Zoë baby please calm down."

"Mr. Daniels please take her out of here. This is a breakthrough and we can't get past this if we're distracted."

My cries only grow louder and the pain grow stronger. "Why? Why him? Please God tell me? What did he ever do?" I scream out while pulling tightly at my hair. My eyes squeeze together and I violently shake my head.

"Zoë!"

"Mrs. Daniels! Please!"

I roughly push Dr. Raines away from me needing space, needing air. I need to get away from all this. So much was going on and it was only making my head spin. My breathing picks up dramatically, the tell tale signs of a panic attack. I see from my peripheral my mom coming towards me with my dad right behind her.

"Don't! Don't touch me! I need space! I just need to..." They stop as I freak out. Not wanting to upset me more they don't continue to advance or try to stop me as I storm right pass them out the office.

"Look at what you did. You destroyed my daughter all over again!" I heard my mom spit angrily at Dr. Raines right before I ran out the building.