Silence

1.

I think when the people are the worst of them, finding the worst in others becomes a survival tactic. They focus heavily on the darkness in people in hopes of masking the true shade of their own darkness.

I was lying in my bed looking at the sky through the window above my bed. The music was blasting through the speaker of my PC in hopes to cover up my parents' usual fight.

My mother was raised in a two room house with her two older brothers. From what I know, she never experienced real and innocent love. Her marriage with my father was an arrangement between her's and my father's parents. He came to her house to take her to the church for the papers and that's it. No flowers, no butterflies, no love declarations, no first date, just a contract and that's it.

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The wind was blowing lightly around the leaves of the apple tree I climbed early in the morning. After staying up all night to think about life and things, I needed to get rid of all the thoughts and get some fresh air, so here I am now, laying on an old branch in a field that serves now as my safe space.

If my house wasn't visible from where I was, I could say there is the perfect view: a few trees with bird houses made by me, a small lake with some fish and sometimes ducks, and on the other side a stud farm of wild horses circled by small soft grass. Up in the tree where it wasn't visible for the people that were crossing that path, I managed to put a wood shelf where I stored some pencils, a sketchbook and some books and magazines to avoid getting bored or just for it to seem more like a home.

The heat from the sun that was above me, was my signal to go back home so that is exactly what i did, through the skinny trees were visible two things: my house, a modest two floored house, three bedrooms, a bathroom, a few hallways, one storage room and a little balcony where my room was, and if you looked closer, like little closer, you could see in my room, in a corner HOPE. From my bed, walls, desk, shelves, you could see a full aesthetic that was THE HOPE, the hope for a better place that isn't in the middle of nowhere, with more open-minded people.

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When I got home my mum was in the kitchen cooking lunch. i gave her a kiss on the cheek

"good morning"

"hi, where have you been?"

"just walking around the house." I said with a smile. "What's for lunch?"

"hope. but we have scrambled eggs and bacon too if you want"

"Shure," I said with a little laugh, settling myself on one of the chairs at the table. Because I came home late, I was eating alone this time.

I made a little chat with my mum while I was eating and then I left up the stairs in my room.

If you don't know her past, you can say she is a very happy woman.

In my room I tried to call my two bffs Renesmee and Iris to update them that I'm alive like usual but they did not respond. After I got friends with their voicemail, I needed something to entertain myself but being too lazy, I chose to lock myself in my cave and watch a movie, then sleep.

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Around 2 AM I woke up with my phone blasting with notifications from the groupchat with the girls. As reading the messages that were random letters probably for them to get my attention, i decided to let them be, go to sleep again, and confront them later in the day about waking me up, but a specific message came into my view: "Renesmee- get ready, in 10 minutes we'll be at your house to take you to a party.''

I don't know if you already figured it out, but I am far from a social person, nor a girl that goes to parties in the middle of the night.

Thinking it's just a joke, I go to sleep again. I felt one with the bed as I laid there without a care in the world. It felt like a blessing. Suddenly I hear a knock on the window of my balcony. It was Iris. After I saw Renesmee down in the grass, I figured out that Iris probably got on my balcony on Renesmee's shoulders.

And they were not joking, they were here to take me to a party.

After some useless reposting, they manage to dress me, get me down through the balcony and shove me in Renesmee friend's car, and everything without waking my parents from downstairs. I hope that at least I scratched that car.