ღ My bestfriend is my first crush ღ

chapter 1 (My crush life)

*BASED ON TRUE STORY*

Many of us has already had a crush. What's a crush? Its a type of feelings you have for one person or you admire him/her. This person makes you flatter whenever you see him/her and perhaps it makes you blush. I'm Ella cruz, 14 years of living and yes i did encountered those feelings.

When i was in grade 3, i had two bestfriends, named as Angelica and Danny. We were very good friends at that time, we used to get scold sometimes by the teachers for being so talkative and not paying attention in the class. 1 year has passed, and i realised that i started developing feelings for him. I didn't tell anyone about this secret. Not even angelica.

In grade 4, i didn't know that he was going to transfer to another school. He tried telling me but i didn't listened to him. It was because he was playing with me and he pulled my hair for fun which made me pissed (i know it sounds childish :))) ) One day, i was searching for him everywhere since i've forgotten that he pulled my hair. But i couldn't find him anywhere. Angelica was also searching for him and we couldn't see any sight of him. Took us a month to realise that he's gone.

I've actually regretted everything. I've regretted that i ignored him those past few weeks, and i feel guilty for not telling him that i have feelings for him :( now that 3 years has past, i've never forgotten about him. Not even once.

The day before christmas, since my parents are busy those days, we didn't celebrate christmas. I was surfing on the internet that day and i also checked my facebook. I found one friend request, i clicked it and i was quite surprised. His brother's name appeared on my friend's request list. His full name and profile picture describes his brother. But i couldn't recognise him well... Since i was sleepy that night, i fell asleep. But before i fell asleep i accepted his friend request. The next day, i remembered that i accepted someone with the name of sheldon. So i searched for it in my friends list but couldn't find it. "i think its just a dream" i thought to myself. Then sunddenly i saw Danny's name on my friends list 0_0

Just after seeing his name, a message popped in my chat box. Which made me more surprised. Guess who chatted with me? Yes it's Danny. The conversation went on like this :-

Danny: hey ella! do you still remember me? 

*after 5 minutes of looking at his first message to me*  

Me: of course i do! duhh?? You're my best friend. 

Danny : so how are you? Where are you studying now? My mom said that our old school burned down, thats we tranfered here in Philippines. 

Me: WHAT?!! the school didn't burned down (well i hope it did, joke :))) ) infact im still studying here, quite boring thou.

The conversation went on.... He told me that the account his using used to be his brother's account but now it was handed to him. So now i understand. But how? And why? Those questions keeps popping up in my head. Where did he find me? Why did he add? We had no mutual friends in facebook but still he found me. So the year 2011 december 24 is so memorial day for me. The day i talked to my bestfriend again, and not only my best friend but also to my first crush which is him.

As weeks passed by, we kept chatting like almost day by day. I happened to ask him a question, "hey danny, do you have a crush?" and he said "yes" i dont know how should i feel when he said that to me. And my friends keeps telling me that i should confess to him now since it has been 3 years. I was scared that he would ignore me and wouldn't talk to me anymore. But i passed that fear. I did confessed to him, and i told him that "i wish we could still be friends" his answer was just "okay" i felt relieved. Days passed after my confession and he hasn't been chatting to me. And i already felt that he's ignoring me. Everytime i would chat to him, he would tell me that he's busy. So yeah, we ignored each other. And till now, we are not communicating with each other.

Maybe i shouldn't have told him that i liked him for 3 years, maybe i should've kept it to myself. Everything i did is a very big mistake. My life now has full of regrets.