you're my best friend : minsung ✓

twenty

"Let's play never have I ever."

Beginning of the new semester.  And as chance would have it, Jeongin became Felix's roommate. Fall was coming around, and it's gotten cold outside. The group stayed indoors, rather than partying they spent their time in one of their apartments. They were in their own room.

Minho had claimed his own bed and threatened anyone who wasn't Jisung death for even trying to sit on it.

The room was stuffy with smoke, a wet towel was placed under the small gap at their door. They didn't want to get caught smoking pot, even though it was sure they wouldn't get in much trouble. It wasn't like this was something abnormal.

They were a group of eight at this point. Hyunjin had invited himself in and no one seemed to bother. Minho didn't fear that he would snitch and tell Jisung, he was too human for that. But he didn't like how Hyunjin tried to play matchmaker.

The last months were pure torture. Some things had happened. He wished they didn't or that they were parts of his fucked up imagination. But they were real.

And his biggest problem with that was that Jisung didn't seem to care. He kept being that sweet, a bit inanely boy.

The boy he sadly and regretfully fell for.

"Never have I ever kissed a boy," Felix announced, flipping his gaze around to see who put their fingers down. Everyone did, besides Jeongin.

"I mean I'm gay so..." Hyunjin giggled, taking a drag from the blunt before giving it to Chan next to him.

"Bisexual," Jisung said. The question turned to a big coming out. Well more or less.

"I'm straight! Hail woman!!" Changbin screamed. Making everyone laugh with an eye roll.

"Never have I ever... slept with my best friend." Jeongin's words hit Minho right in his heart. The open wound that he was trying to heal for way too long.

Again, everyone but Felix and Jeongin put a finger down.

"What??" Felix looked at them like they had told him that unicorns still existed. Chan shrugged his shoulders. "I was hella drunk."

"I wouldn't have slept with him if I was sober," Changbin said bitterly. He let smoke pour out of his nose and mouth, leaning back into the pillows he brought from his room.

"What about you Seungmin, you've been suspiciously quiet." Seungmin was never someone to lose his cool. But maybe the drug made him a bit more talkative about himself.

"Remember that sneaky link I told you guys about, last semester?" He giggled. The rest nodded, already 'ooooh" -ing and wiggling their eyebrows. Seungmin pointed to Hyunjin.

"No, are you pissing me right now?!" Chan laughed, hitting his leg in the process. Hyunjin nonchalantly took his turn on the blunt, adjusting his seat a bit.

"Are you still...?" Jisung looked back and forth between the two with wide eyes. "Nah, he's whipped for the botanic girl, no way I'm fucking that emotional mess. I have my morals." Hyunjin said.

"You were the top?!" The whole group asked. He flipped them off, screaming: "Don't judge a book by its cover bitches!"

It took a while for everyone to calm down. They would never let Seungmin forget about this, ever. "

Jisung, Minho, you two fucked for sure." Changbin was suddenly pointing his finger at them.

"Dude I literally thought the same!" Felix said, high-fiving him.

"They're wayyyy too close to deny that." Everyone started to give their opinions on it.

Minho felt like dying. He wanted to set his bed on fire with the blunt and burn in shame.

It was childish of him, that one night. He had seen no way out of his dilemma and started to drink, to bury his feelings just for once. He got so wasted, that the opposite had happened. Minho couldn't understand why Jisung had returned his gestures as he had  kissed him so hard, that his lips were bruised the next day. He didn't understand how he could remember saying a bunch of stupid, but true shit about his feelings. Why did they fucked on his bed?

The bed they were sitting on right now. It was number one on the list of "if I could turn time back". He felt like that list kept on growing the longer he was at university.

"But don't you think that it's kinda like a best-friend thing... to have hooked up with each other before?" Jisung laughed.

Minho took the last long drag of the blunt, putting it in the ashtray afterward. The group made agreeing sounds. Minho nodded his head, staring off into space.