Lost In My Mind

Myself

As you can tell by my thoughts, I'm an over thinker. I think beyond of what my brain is capable of doing. I don't know why, but I kinda enjoy it...

My name is Holly. I think of myself as an outsider. You know the one with no friends and no life. I enjoy doing what I do best. Writing and losing myself in my thoughts.

I love writing poems and stories and what not. What I don't like is they way I lose myself in my thoughts. Sometimes I try to find the worst out of situations... Especially myself...

I have found every flaw about myself and I think about it. For example, I hate the way I look. I don't like my stomach, my legs are the size of freezers, and I am nothing close to beautiful...

Now don't feel sorry for me. Don't try to tell me I'm beautiful when I know I'm not. What you don't understand is that I tell myself this stuff because I know people are already judging me for it. Whenever people judge me, I agree with them because I know it's the truth. I have brain washed myself and there is nothing I can do.

That's what makes me different about everyone else. I point out my flaws do that no one can judge me... I've already judged everything about myself. Everything down to the last freckle.

I also have this little thing called anxiety. And let me tell you it sucks. Feeling like your alone in a room full of people. To afraid to talk in fear of being ridiculed. Its pretty bad.