I NEED YOU - BangChan × reader

The day everything changed

TRIGGER WARNING FOR THE WHOLE BOOK. PLEASE DON'T READ IF YOU EASILY GET TRIGGERED!

You have been in a relationship with Chan for a while now, but it doesn't help with how you perceive your life.

It's 3:00 am, and you wake abruptly from your deep slumber. In the process, it wakes up Chan, who was fast asleep next to you. "Y/N, what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Chan said, concerned and half asleep.

"I had a bad dream", you replied " I died, and you forgot that I existed. You.........." You replied again while wiping the tears off of your face.

"Y/N, I would never forget you! I love you to pieces; don't ever forget that!" Chan said while giving you a big hug. You walked to the bathroom and looked at yourself in the mirror. " I hate myself, every part of me. I don't deserve a boyfriend like Chan. I don't deserve anyone in my life." You said to yourself as you continued to cry. Every part of you was overwhelmed by the feeling of sadness. You shook it off and wiped the rest of your tears off your face. As you walked back to the bedroom, you saw Chan with a concerned look on his face. You walked closer to him, and he pulled you closer for a big hug "you need sleep Y/N. You're going to be tired later, and I have to go to meet the boys for rehearsals." Chan said while laying down with you still in his arms. You nuzzled your face into his shoulder as you both fell asleep again.

7:30 am

"SHIT!" Chan shouted as he looked at the alarm clock on the bedside table. "I'M LATE! " he called again as he frantically got out of bed and got ready to leave.

"What about breakfast?" You replied.
" I HAVEN'T GOT TIME FOR THAT! STOP PESTERING ME I'M LATE ENOUGH AS IT IS WITHOUT YOU HOLDING ME UP EVEN MORE!!" He shouted, making you flinch.

This is nothing like the normal Chan. He is usually the nicest person you have ever known. Are the fears of him forgetting who you are coming true? You sit up on your bed and see Chan storm out of the bedroom. "What have I done wrong?" You thought, "maybe he is stressed over the comeback he and his members are preparing for?" You thought to yourself as you walked to the bathroom.

You see a razor at the sink. You pick it up and look at it peacefully. You place it on your wrist and put pressure on your wrist, and give yourself a cut, and as a result cutting a vein.

Suddenly Chan stormed back into the bedroom cause he had forgotten his laptop because he was in a rush. "Y/N, where are you?!" He shouted while frantically trying to find you because he got no reply. He finally found you 10 minutes later and saw you on the floor of the bathroom your hand covered in blood. "What have you done? Why did you do this to yourself!?" You were too weak to answer. You collapse to the floor, and Chan catches your frail body, stopping you from injuring yourself further. "Y/N!!!!! CAN YOU HEAR ME!!?" Chan screamed. He didn't know what to do. He called an ambulance and put a clean towel on your wounds, and applied pressure. "You are going to be alright. Y/N, stay with me." He said between crying. "This is all my fault," he thought.

The paramedics finally arrived, and Chan observed what they were doing without getting in the way. They bandage the wound on your wrist as tight as they could and assessed the situation before talking to Chan.

"Are you Y/N's boyfriend?" One of the paramedics quickly said to Chan, panicking in the corner of the bathroom.

"Yes, I am", Chan frantically replied.

"We are going to take Y/N to the hospital. You can come in the ambulance if you would like?"

"Yes, please", Chan replied again crying.

The paramedics put you in the ambulance, and Chan followed, trying not to trip. You were then blue lighted to hospital.