For: Dad

On April 18, 2015...

I hate how you seem to disapprove of almost everything I do. This decision was mine, and I had to right to make it. I care about others more than myself. That is because of my bullying. I have been a victim of it for as long as I can remember, but I can't imagine a pain like that on anyone else. I want others to lead happy lives, and to fulfill everything they hope and dream for. I have dreams too, you know. Ones that you'll probably never understand. I dream of bigger things, and things that may seem really far out of reach at the moment. You might not think I can do what I dream of, and others think the same. I have been told for a long time that I can't accomplish what I have dreamed of doing my whole life. They have taken my dreams away, and nothing can replace that. I made an important decision to personally help others, but not just people. Animals, too. Everything matters to me. Everything has an importance to this earth, and the universe it's in. My only wish is to make it better. I may not actually help, but I will feel the personal satisfaction of doing something right. It may not have anything to do with the decisions i've made so far. But the decision I WILL make, I know will make a good impact on what I really care about. I don't know what it is yet, but it's something really important, and I will care about it a lot. I hope one day I can have faith in accomplishing the dream that so many have told me I can't have. I hope one day I can do great things that make the world a better place, in whatever way that counts. I also hope that you can truly support me one day. No matter what decision i've made, no matter how much you hate what i've become, and no matter how much you want me to do what you failed to learn. I hope that if I ever make it to where I want to be, that you'll be there with me. I want you to help me along the way, and cheer me on even if i've lost. I don't just want you to support me, or offer me a shoulder to cry on, or lift me up when i've fallen down. I need you. I need you to convince me that I can do better. I need you to make sure I reach my goals, and give me a nudge when I need support. I NEED you to be there with me through it all. Right by my side, where you should be.