The ones that could never be

01

ANPU. The name given to me at birth. I'm a scrawny kid with dark blue eyes and pale as fuck, I have a Beauty mark on the right side of my face above my lip and I was given the name of the Egyptian god of death. Fitting for a person that has no life left inside him huh? I felt so numb inside all my life; that is until I met Barii. A name for the innocent, but Barii was anything but. He would take me on adventures and we would do... other stuff. But this is not the love story of me and Barii. No. This is the story of how our love was the death of Me.
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I was walking the streets of New York City trying to find a good spot to sit dow and read the news (I know I sound like an old person, but it's nice). Eventually I found a place on Bedford st. A nice little restaurant that I could sit down and read away. I got seated and opened my laptop going to CNN™️ to see that there was a shooting in Manhattan.
"What is wrong with people, why do they have to do this?" I say to myself.
"I don't know, maybe they need help" the guy next to me says. I look at him strangely.
"Oh I mean um professional -help" he stutter's trying to play it if cool. But I just kept looking at him. He was so pretty, he hade emerald green eyes and raven black hair the perfect lips and his face was covered in freckles and he hade a slit in one of his eyebrows. He was skinny but muscular. He smiled at me looking at every detail of my face as well. His smile was melting me from the inside, he smiled from ear to ear and he had dimples. I love dimples. And he was so hot.
"What's your name?" I finally ask braking the silence between us
"Huh, oh um Barii. My name is Barii Miller. And yours?"
"Anpu, Anpu Parker" I say still not breaking Eye contact
"So we both have unusual names how fun." He says like we've know each other for years but the sentence was like we've only know each other for five minutes
"So what dose your's mean?" Barii ask's still studying every detail of my face
"Well I got the same name as the Egyptian god of death" I say as it's the most boring thing in the world but Barii's facial expectation changes from his Beautiful smile to a surprised face
"That is so cool. You're literally named after a god" he says a little loud.
"Yeah but I've never liked my name."
"Yeah I get that. I've never really liked my name either. It- it just doesn't fit me you know."
"So what dose it mean?" I ask still curious what his name means
"What does what mean?" He asks like he hade no idea what we've been talking about for the last two minutes
"Your name doofus" I say giggling a little at his forgetfulness
"Ohh it uh means...Innocent" he says looking down at the floor. My eyes widened a little and I raised my eyebrows a little as well when I remember that he said that his name didn't fit him
"Can I have your number?" I ask braking the silence once again
"Wha -what?" He asks taken by surprise
"Oh I'm sorry I -I thought you were... never mind"
"No what, I'm sorry I was taking by surprise. Of course you can um have my number" he says grabbing a napkin and a pen
"Here yah go" he said handing me the napkin
"Thanks, I'll call you." I say still studying the details of his face
"Yeah I hope you will" he said doing the same and then standing up and walking out.
Holy shit, I just asked someone out. What. the. fuck.
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I woke up the next day to get ready for school. When I woke up I decided to text Barii good morning. He didn't respond immediately but I figured that he was still asleep.
I got up and walked over to my closed to pick out and outfit. I picked a hoodie and some jeans. The usual; then I went to school but not before I sent Barii a picture of the outfit. He didn't respond.
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I got to school. We had English first so I sat down next my best friend Theodore. Theodore is a skinny boy with long brown hair and brown eyes and he was not the sharpest tool in the shed.
"Hey Anpu what's up man" Theo asked immediately when I was in ear shot.
"Nothing much man other then I just asked someone out that I met in restaurant!" I say so exited
"Oh cool good for you dude" Theo said not as exited as me. Clearly something was wrong hear, he's always happy.
"What's wrong Theo?" I ask concerned, but not even a second later his mood changes and he's his normal self again.
"Nothing, nothings wrong with me. Nope I'm great so happy for you. Yep super happy ha-ha" he says he's ok so I guess he's ok right?
" ok good that you're good. I don't know what I would do without your upbeat attitude man" I say smiling at him
"Yeah dude that's good, that's... good"
The bell rang and class started.
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*Ping*
I got a text. I check who and I see that it's from Barii
"Omg Barii just texted me. Holy shit" I say to Theo so exited that he finally texted me back.
"Who?" He asks confused on who the fuck Barii is
"The guy from the restaurant man he just texted!" I say a little to loud that the girls one table over looked at us like we were some wired rat's making to much noise
"Oh cool text him back" Theo suggested like it was nothing at all. But this is harder said the done. I opens the text and it was a picture of Barii. With no shirt on in platforms and a skirt with ripped fishnets.
Fuck. He's so hot.
Oh shit. I felt a pulse down there. Shit shit. Why here. Why now. No, no, no.
I hade a boner in the middle of English class!
I pulled my hoodie down hoping no one could see it
"Miss could I go to the bathroom please?" I try to not sound desperate when I say it, but Theo heard me
"Dud are you ok?" He asks concerned
I ignored him still trying to get the teacher attention
"Miss? Can I pleas go to the bathroom" I ask again hoping she would hear me
"Oh yeah of course deer, take the hall pass" she handed me the hall pass.
"Dud what's wrong" Theo asked more confused now
I ignored him again. I speed walked to the bathroom and went in a stall
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Ten minutes later I walked out of the bathroom completely fine. I walked to the class room and sat down next to Theo again.
"Dud what happened. You were gone like ten minutes" Theo sounded concerned
"Uh- nothing happened" I said more robotic then I entended. Theo just looks at me wired but he let it slide. We sat together the rest of the school day. When school was over Theo wanted to hang out, we went to my place. Thank fully dad wasn't home yet so we could stay a while.
*ping*
Hey do you want to go out tonight?
Omg Barii just texted me again. Holy shit
Yeah sure when?
Maybe at 6:00?
Yeah sounds good. Where are we going 
"Dude who are you texting that got you so excited?"
Theo asks half laughing at me
"Oh you know just Barii." I say with the biggest smile on my face. But what I didn't notice is that Theo's face fell slightly at the sound at Barrie's name
"Oh. Cool dude what's he saying?" He says a little less upbeat.
"He's asking me on a date in..." I look at me phone to where
Central Park?
Omg yes. A walk through the park. So romantic
"Central Park" I say with a smile on my face
"Cool dude, I'm happy for you" he says not at all as upbeat as he was two minutes ago but I was to happy to notice.
"Help me choose an outfit" I say rushing to my closet. I picked up a black tennis skirt and a black hoodie some converse and knee socks. I started to undressed to put on the new outfit.
"Yeah ok sure um-" Theo cut himself of when he saw me undressed just in my boxers. His face was as red as a tomato, he couldn't take his eyes of my back. I pulled the skirt on then bending down to get my converse. When I bent down the skirt went up and my boxers were exposed, Theo gulped. His face even redder. I put my converse on and pulled the hoodie over my head. Theo's redness went down a bit after that. I went to my desk trying to fine some rings.
When I found them I turned around and Theo was on his phone again not paying any attention to me.
"Theo what do you think of this?" He looked up from his phone looking me up and down.
"It's uh- good" he says looking back down at his phone.
"Ok good, good" I look in the mirror trying to see if anything was wrong with the outfit
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There were thirty minutes until my and Bariie's date. Dad wasn't home yet so that was good (that also means that he won't be home until tomorrow). I started walking to Central Park looking for Barii. When I got there Barii was waiting for me, when he saw me he smiled his beautiful smile at me and walked towards me. He was wearing black skinny jeans Nike shoes and a white button up. He's so handsome omg. It looked like he was thinking the same thing. "You look so cute" he said when I came up to him. "Thank you, you look handsome" I say with a blushing face. "Thank you, oh uh shall we?" He asked putting his hand out for me
"We shall" I say as I take his hand.
Our fingers were intertwined with each other as we walked through the park in comfortable silence. It felt right walking with him, our hand fitted perfectly together, I could only imagine what his lips would feel on mine. After walking for thirty minutes we sat down on a bench watching the other people that walked by. "Did you like the picture I sent you today?" Barii asked with a grin. I blushed remembering what he sent me. "Yeah I did" I say looking at the ground so he wouldn't see my red face. "No need to be shy" he says taking me chin gently to make me look at him. I looked in to his eyes, they were full of lust, then I looked at his lips the were partly separated. I look back at his eyes, they were now on my lips. He leaned in and kissed me. I kissed back. He broke the kiss so he could breath. "Let's go to my apartment" he suggested. The lust in his eyes only became stronger. "Yeah ok" I kissed him again, wanting to be connected to him again.
"Com on" he said pulling me gently of the bench.