I have been working at a sex addiction rehabilitation center for a couple of years now.
This job is certainly not something that sounds cool, but I like it here because my boss lets me live here for free! There is a special room just for me. It has one lamp in the corner, a mattress in the other corner with a pillow and a blanket, and a bookshelf of my favorite books. The room is pretty small, but that's just what makes it cozy. There is also a telephone in my room for when my boss needs to contact me. I get to use the bathroom to shower and brush my teeth and all that too. I'm so grateful because I would be homeless right now had it not been for this job.
I think I know why my boss lets me live here. I am the only worker. Nobody else wants to work in a program like this, I guess. And I do have to admit, the payment is not too well, but letting me stay here for free makes up for all of it.
People are missing out because the job itself is kinda fun and simple. I take attendance every day when I watch them through the cameras implemented in this building. I ensure each one comes out from the cells, so there are about 30 men in total. No women. I work in the kitchen where I make meals for the rehab people two times a day, then I clean their cells when they are away eating in the dining room, and when they return to their cells, I clean the dining room.
Oh yea, I said "cells" because I noticed that this rehabilitation center is very similar to a prison. I'm not sure if that's how it's supposed to be. It almost seems like the people admitted to this center are way too addicted to sex to be helped. Almost like they are put in here just to be kept away from the rest of society.
I try to avoid them when I clean because one thing my boss has always told me: "Make sure they never see you unless they are behind closed bars."
The kitchen window is a one-way mirror, so I can see them, but they can't see me. I put the food out through a small slot, so they can get their food without seeing me.
When work feels boring and repetitive, I like to have fun sometimes. Since my boss said, "Make sure they never see you unless they are behind closed bars"., I like to come to the room with all their cells to do some extra cleaning when they are all behind closed bars.
You should see the look on their faces, all smushed up against the bars, drooling and screaming at me. It's funny because they can't actually get to me, but they want me so bad. I have to admit, my work outfits are pretty cute. I gotta show it off to someone, at least. I alternate between baby blue and pastel pink maid dresses. They make me feel pretty.
Anyway, it's like holding a treat in front of multiple dogs, but not giving it to any of them. Sure, it sounds mean, but I'm only just cleaning. It's part of the job! Well, I also don't feel too bad because they get super aggressive sometimes...calling me really hurtful words and saying horrible things that they would do to me. I think they actually hate women, and depriving them of sex is only making things worse for them. I can't help but to tease and judge them sometimes. They were given clothes to wear but choose to always have their dicks hanging out, so I became desensitized to all of it. I wish some, at least one, could just be normal. I want to be able to talk with someone, have a conversation about our lives and our future. But no, they're just like animals. It gets lonely sometimes, especially since I can never step out of this building unless I want to lose my job. That's what my boss has always told me.
But today, things are changing. I'm so excited. My boss told me through the telephone in my room that a group of scientists is coming to the building to study the behaviors of the men. Not only do I finally get to interact with normal people, but I get to have hope that things will change for the better as they collect more information on the people's behaviors and all that. Maybe this will actually help them because I feel like this rehabilitation center has just been neglectful of them. I already brought this up to my boss many times before, but finally, he is doing something about it.
I went to the front door and greeted the scientists, welcoming them in. There were 3 of them, and they had clipboards and whatnot. They look to be middle-aged. They were really friendly to me.
"Hi! I'm so excited to have you guys here." I stated with a smile.
"Thank you, wow, are you the only worker here?" One of them asked as we walked down the hallway to the main area.
"Yes, so it can get pretty lonely at times, which is why I'm so glad to see you guys, haha, but I do like working here still."
"Aw, we're glad to be here too and keep you company."
"Thank you! So what are your plans?"
"Well, a lot of it is confidential stuff, but we will be conducting an experiment. In fact, you get to be a part of it."
"Wait, really??"
"Yes! Follow me."
We already arrived in the main area, but they led me to a different part of the building that I do not usually go to. I was already so excited to watch an experiment happen, but to be a part of it too?? I followed the group eagerly. They were so friendly, so normal.
They unlocked a room I had never been in before. It was a room with two huge uhh boxes? They had glass walls, and the bottom of them appeared to be white and soft like a mattress. There was a door to enter the rooms. I'm assuming that they are going to have the rehab people enter the box so they can study them or something. I'm not exactly sure what their objective is though, they seem pretty secretive about it.
"This is the room we are conducting the experiment in, but could you go to your room for a few minutes? We have to discuss something related to the experiment that is private. We will get you again when we're done."
"Okay, but why can't I be part of the discussion if I am going to be part of the experiment?"
"Well, we are professional scientists that are conducting the experiment. You are not conducting it, you will only be a part of it. We must keep this information confidential, it would be illegal to not do so."
"Oh, I'm so sorry to question. I was just wondering out of curiosity. I will go to my room now."
"Thank you." they waved goodbye with a smile.
I left the room. I felt bad for questioning, but it seemed they were okay with it. Their answer was just common sense. I should've known better than to ask. I need to be more patient. I'm sure they will inform me how I will participate in the experiment later. I'm just so excited, I want the experiment to start now!
