Hikaru Nara | M.Chifuyu • B.Keisuke

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·Portuguese warning:
Esta é a versão em inglês, se você quiser ler a versão em português por favor vá para o próximo capítulo, obrigado :]

TW: Light mentions of death, Tokyo Revengers anime season 1 spoilers.

!Warning!
First of all, I apologize for this and I'm not going to be paying for anyone's therapy (/hj). I cried a lot while writing this and now I cried again as I reread what I wrote before, even though it's not the best of all stories it still has immense meaning for me. Baji and Chifuyu were two characters that marked me a lot, my biggest comfort characters and favorite characters, so watching Baji's death shook me so much that I had a breakdown and cried for days (especially after seeing some edits and seeing the chibi revengers episode) . During this time that I spent sad and crying I listened to Hikaru Nara and the lyrics touched me a lot, it reminds me a lot of Baji and Chifuyu somehow so I decided to write this to get all my feelings out. Y/n was originally my OC from Tokyo Revengers (Soul/Soulgguk) who is best friends with both of them, so sorry if they seem too close without context, I don't have a sequel or a backstory for this oneshot but if you want I can try to create.
Again, this was a private thing I created to vent and while I felt bad, it's been months (I wrote this in October 2021, yes I had bad luck deciding to watch the anime right in the month that Baji died) and I didn't knew that much about the characters/anime so please forgive any mistakes or anything that seems kinda pointless.
English isn't my first language so sorry any mistakes, please let me know if I wrote anything in the wrong way or a way something would look better.
Thanks for reading, this oneshot means a lot to me.

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-It can't be true... It's a lie, right Baji? - Chifuyu repeated to himself as he faced his friend's grave. - It all happened so fast, I wish I had more time. I wish I could talk to you again, one last time... - He said trying to control the tears, without success. He knew it wasn't a lie, everything happened in front of him after all, but he didn't want to accept it. He couldn't accept. It would be the same to say that Baji lost, the same to say that he was alone. - you know I hate being alone... - he said between a sob or another. - Then why did you leave me alone here?! I know I have Toman, but it's different, Baji. I just wanted to share a Yakisoba Piyang one last time with you. Fight together with you one last time, so that, even coming home all bruised, I could have a smile on my face thinking about the great friend I had made. I trusted you, I always did and I still do, I know you did it because you knew it would be for the best. But you can understand my side, you can forgive me for being selfish this time, don't you? You would say "don't worry too much, just enjoy life! Live for me Chifuyu" or "you look weird crying, stop it dude". - He laughed imagining his friend saying that. He knew that it sounded like him, and it made his heart warm.
But something he didn't know was that he wasn't alone there. Behind a tree nearby was Y/n, watching him while holding back her own tears. She is also a great friend of Baji, she, Chifuyu and Baji were an inseparable trio! And his death brought as much pain to her as it did to him, even though she didn't know him as well as the blonde.

Y/n liked Chifuyu, liked him a lot, and Baji always knew. It wasn't hard for him to notice the way she looked at Chifuyu, even though he wasn't an expert in that area, and his mother gave him some advice too, which helped him to understand, and thanks to that, try to help his friend. She still remembered his last words referring to her, the last request Baji made to her while whispering in her ear: "take care of Chifuyu for me. I know you won't leave him alone". "I promise, Baji" was her answer, and she doesn't plan to break this promise.
After letting him calm down a bit, she decided to get closer. Chifuyu immediately noticed her presence and turned around slightly, watching her walk towards him and then just sat down next to him.
-You don't need to apologize for that, you know, right? Baji hated when you apologized for no reason, it's not really your style. - they laughed together after remembering when they were playing video games and Baji almost hit Chifuyu for apologizing for having won and making Baji angry. "Don't apologize for winning, be proud! If you come with that humble talk on me again I'll break your face" he said while laughing pulling Chifuyu closer and putting an arm over her shoulders. His laugh. Something everyone would miss, Y/n, Pah, Mikey, Mitsuya, Draken, Kazutora and especially Chifuyu. He was the first person he admired and respected, his best friend.
-I miss him... - he confessed softly, almost as if he'd just been thinking aloud. - why did he have to go? I don't understand... It doesn't make sense, Y/n! - he was crying again. Out of anger, sadness, regret, guilt.
-Nothing makes sense, Fuyu. But know: you are not alone. He's not gone. As long as you have him with you, in your heart, he will remain here. Someone only dies if they're forgotten, as long as you don't forget him, he'll stay alive. - she turned to look him in the eyes and smiled - legends never die, Matsuno. Baji once said that, remember? He became a legend, it's thanks to him that Toman exists, he created her and he saved her, so you must stand firm. Protect the reason why Baji gave his life, continue with his ideals and goals for him. He will never die, we will not let that happen. - she held his hand when she said "we" while letting the tears flow freely down her face. There was no point in holding back, no reason to feel ashamed for crying for someone she loved.
She didn't notice, but her words hit Chifuyu more than it should have. More than he wished they had hit him. He didn't want to lose his friend, and he felt weak for not having protected him, but he realized that Baji had never lied. He was not alone, Baji never left him, he was with him forever in his heart and memories.
And now he realized, Baji left him Y/n so he wouldn't feel alone, even if it wasn't the same. "He's never going to die, we're not going to let that happen," she said, and that made him happy and unable to hold it back anymore. On impulse he pulled the girl by the hand that she was holding and brought her close hugging her, lying down comfortably in her arms. He didn't want her to see him crying, he felt pathetic in that state, so he hid his face in her chest, but he had also done that because he felt comfort in her presence. She reminded him of Baji, but a calmer version, which was still chaotic, kind, sarcastic and funny.
-You can cry all the much you want and need, you don't need to feel ashamed for your feelings. - she stated as she hugged him back lightly stroking his blond strands. - I'm here with you, you're not alone.
As she lay silently letting him crying into her arms and listening to his low sobs, she remembered another moment. Once they were at a karaoke night together and Baji called her and Chifuyu to sing the song "Hikaru Nara" along with him. They managed to do well, even though it ended up being funniest of all, and Chifuyu recorded the entire scene leaning his cell phone on a can on the table. A while after that Baji revealed that this song had become his favorite, as it reminded him of good times he spent with the two of them. She started to sing the lyrics softly as he continued to cry, she realized he had shuddered and tightened his grip on her as she began to sing. It means she made the right choice.
-Shunkan no Doramachikku Firumu no naka no hito-koma no - she raised her voice slightly when she saw that the chorus was starting - Kienai yo kokoro ni Kizamu kara... Kimi da yo, Kimi nanda yo! Oshiete kureta Kurayami mo Hikaru Nara Hoshizora ni naru. - She pulled him away from her a little, so she could look into his face. He was smiling through his tears. - Kanashimi wo egao ni Mou kakusanai de, Kirameru donna hoshi mo Kimi wo terasu kara. - She continued singing, but this time with Chifuyu looking at her directly and analyzing her. He was still sitting very close to her and with his hands around her waist, as if he didn't want to let go of the hug, and it didn't bother her since she also didn't want to let go of him.
Suddenly she was surprised by Chifuyu starting to sing softly. She almost immediately stopped singing so she could hear him better, he thought about stopping when she did but decided to get over the embarrassment.
-Seijaku wa Romantikku Koucha ni toketa Shugaa no you ni... Zenshin ni meguru yo Kimi no koe.
They began to sing together, in sync and looking at the photo of Baji they had placed on top of his Tomb. He was smiling.
Kimi da yo Kimi nanda yo
Egao wo kureta
Namida mo Hikaru Nara
Ryuusei ni naru
Kizutsuita sono te wo
Mou hanasanai de
Negai wo kometa sora ni
Ashita ga kuru kara
They smiled together looking at the photo, this song described what Baji represented for them. Their best friend and someone who taught them to be themselves without worrying about what people think and smile no matter what. Baji was an admirable person behind the tough delinquent face. Someone who would protect his friends regardless of the risks and would give his life for what he believes in, without any fear.
Michibiite kureta
Hikari wa kimi da yo
Tsuratte boku mo
Hashiridashita
Shiranu ma ni
Kurosu shihajimeta
They looked at each other again. It was now the final chorus and Baji's favorite part of the song. He especially liked it because of the calmer part, he thought it was beautiful.
Hora Ima da
Koko de Hikaru Nara
Kimi da yo Kimi nanda yo
Oshiete kureta
Kurayami wa owaru kara...
Kimi da yo Kimi nanda yo
Oshiete kureta
Kurayami mo Hikaru Nara
Hoshizora ni naru
Kanashimi wo egao ni
Mou kakusanai de
Kirameku donna hoshi mo
Kimi wo terasu kara
Chifuyu layed down on Y/n again, but this time facing Baji's picture.
Kotae wa itsudemo
Guuzen? Hitsuzen?
Itsuka eranda nichi koso
Unmei ni naru
Nigirishimeta sono
Kibou mo fuan mo
Kitto futari wo ugokasu
Hikari ni naru kara
And they finished the song. Together, embraced and next to their friend. They couldn't stop thinking that this is how it should have ended, but with only one difference: Baji alive and singing along with them. He pulled her closer, putting his face on her chest again while saying in a slightly low voice, hoarse from crying:
-He must be happy... He always wanted us to be together, he told me that I should get closer to you and now we are together singing his favorite song. - He said imagining how Baji would react to that, he would probably laugh and make fun of him until the end of time. She nodded before speaking.
-He would be laughing like an idiot... But a happy idiot. - She rested her chin on top of his head. - What do you think he must be doing now?
-Probably picking a fight with someone in his new life. That's something he would do. - He started to laugh, making her laugh too. Baji could pick fights with someone wherever he went, it's not another life that's going to change that. - Do you think we'll meet him again someday?
-Of course! Nothing can tear our trio apart, idiot! We'll be a trio again in the next life, okay? - She extended her pinky to him, who laughed calling her childish before agreeing and joining his finger with hers.
They stayed together for a few more minutes - maybe 5, maybe 20, nobody knows - reminiscing about moments with Baji before Matsuno got a call from Draken asking him to help with something from Toman. He had to go so he told her and got up annoyed, he wanted to continue there remembering the good times, but duty called him.
-Before you go... I have something for you. - Y/n slightly pulled the sleeve of his hoodie while releasing his hand and taking something from her bag, it was a yellow package tied with a red ribbon. He watched her take the package out of her bag and hand it over, her eyes watering again and a sad yet nostalgic smile on her face. - See you around, Fuyu! - she said with an even bigger smile as she walked backwards looking at him, until when she was further away she just turned and ran away.
When he lost sight of her, he returned his gaze to the package. He was so surprised that he didn't even say goodbye, he would apologize for it later. He studied it for some moments and opened it, finding a frame covered in brown paper and a note. On it was written:
"We wanted to give you this for your birthday together, but the plans have changed. Live for Baji, Fuyu! Honor his legacy.
It was his idea about making this gift, so I decided to deliver it before. I know he would approve of that choice.
With love,
Y/n :)"
And on the brown paper there were only two sentences.
"We love you, you're amazing ❤️" in Y/n's handwriting and
"Thank you for being the best friend I could ever have" in Baji's handwriting.
Already crying again, Matsuno opened the package and found another photo, one of him and Baji sitting together while laughing. He remembered perfectly that day, and that particular moment in their special place, as Baji told one of his childhood stories: he had beaten 3 guys three years older than him at once and in the end they took the blame. They thought this was funny, specially as the boys still hated Baji now days but didn't have the courage to even go near him again. When the picture was taken they were already talking normally and had stopped laughing, but even so he hadn't realized that Y/n had done it, he was distracted talking to his friend.
He smiled to himself as he walked home, still thinking about that photo and the amazing friends he had. He felt lucky. Lucky for everything he achieved. Lucky to meet Y/n. Lucky to have participated in Toman with his friend. Lucky to have lived those good times.
And mainly:
Lucky to be one of the few to have the privilege of meeting Baji Keisuke. Not the delinquent who scared everyone, but the trustworth friend who had become a hero and a legend. The star that would now light up Tokyo's sky at night.

"It's you, you who taught me the darkness will end
It's you, you who taught me
If the darkness shines too, then it'll become a night of stars.
Don't hide your sadness behind a laughing face anymore
Because all the twinkling stars will shine on you"
It was you, Baji Keisuke.

The end.

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Photo that is mentioned:

-I got this drawing from Google months ago and I don't know who the artist is so I can't give credit, but if anyone knows who the artist is, please let me know so I can give their proper credit. If the artist sees this and feels uncomfortable having their art here please contact me so I can remove the drawing.