When two path cross

Realivibg the painful past

I zipped up my dress and walked down to the living room putting my converse shoes on

Dad it hasn't even been month since the funeral I'm not ready for the pain to come back I said

I know sweetie but we have to do this for us for mom my dad said kissing my forehead

Don't be shock if I run out of the church upset I said

I know honey my dad said kissing my forehead

We headed to the church

Ready my dad said

He grabbed my hand and we walked into hell literally

We grabbed a program and sat in our usually place in the back didn't care to be there

There candle I said

You'll be okay my dad said squeeze my hand

They turned the lights off

My favorite priest was there. He was there the day my sister died the hospital room with my family. He cared a lot and in fact kinda became a friend to me and overtime I developed feeling for him and he knows it. He also knows I have rocky relationships with the church and the pain it brings to me

He touched my shoulder

Hi Jessie I said

They lite the Easter candle

They lite my candle the smoke of the candle brings back to memories of my sister

I started shaking and hyperventilating badly

I can't do this I said

I handed my candle to my little brother and I ran out of the church

I started hyperventilating badly I couldn't breathe at all

Lizzy Jessie said

Aren't supposed to be at church I said

No I care for you Jessie said

I sat on the bench along the church

Jessie sat next to me

Is it your sister Lizzy Jessie said

Yes I said

You wanna talk about it Jessie asked me

You know me so well I said

I've been your associated pastor for three years and I've gotten to know you through your family and school Jessie smiles at me

Lizzy loves the Easter vigils so much and the candle brings memories of her I said

Like what Jessie said

You know when candle it melts to forms a pile that what Becca was pile of shit ready to explode. I knew my parents new it she had attempted before we just thought it was attention I said

Flashback
Becca had drinking all day and just had gotten home

Becca you're drunk I said

Yeah I know but I don't care Becca said

She went to her room Becca was soccer player I heard big crash and I didn't check on her. I went to check on her before bed and I found her passed on her bedroom floor dead cold to the touch. The ambulance arrived at the house took her

I remember walking into the house

How is she doc? I asked

Lizzy your sister is gone we can't do anything I'm sorry for your loss the doctor said

I fell to the floor sobbing loudly

End flashback

By the time I was done talking my head was on Jessie shoulder

You wanna get something to eat Jessie asked me politely

Then pastor walked out guns and blazing

Jessie you can't leave cold turkey in the middle of a service Fr.Brandon said

I'm sorry I had to make sure Lizzy was okay Jessie said

Oh god you not still fixated on a dead girl sister Fr.Brandon said

Sorry I caused an issue I said

I'm sorry but I gotta go Jessi said

Go I said

After Jessi left

I sat in the freezing rain crying

After Mass was over my dad walked over to me

Can you explain your little freak out you embarrassed me my dad yelled

It was another panic attack I said

You doing just what Becca did I'm admitting you to the hospital My dad said

Dad no I said

You do what I tell you to do my dad said

Babe lay off of her My mom said

You gonna put up with this crap My dad said

I could just move out I said

That amazing My dad said
walked to the far

I'm hanging with friend you can go I said to my mother

I sat on the bench

Jessie POV

I walked back over to Lizzy

Come on I said

I'm sorry I put you in this spot Lizzy said

Don't you worry I said

I walked to the park one of her favorite places to be at

Why is this day so important to your sister I asked her

The candle incense and she had a love for the church Lizzy said to me

Have I told your eyes are beautiful I said

Lizzy POV

We walked in the park talking about things and Becca

I remember this one time my dad brought big screen tv for Christmas and we pulled in the drive way and Becca ran out is it puppy. I said we can download one I said laughing

I don't ever want you to feel like your feelings are heard Jessie said

I hate that place the pain I experienced there and the way your dad treated me the day at the funeral just blindside me I said

I know and I'm sorry for that Jessie said

I wanted to kiss him so badly