My ghost girl (lil peep)

5

The next day
I woke up in peeps bed last night was ..... fuck I don't even know but I have been in abusive relationships sooo ik where this is going and I promised myself after Marcus I would never let a man- nobody treat me that way as much as I love gus im gonna distance myself

But secretly? Ca he's gonna be pissed I think idk what he think tbh he like fucking crazy or something

"Oh hey" peep said coming into the room with only pants on and a plate of bacon I didn't even notice he was gone tbh it was nice

"Uhhh U good?" He said fuck I should say something

"Ya im uhh jus gonna go ok?" I said like it was a question fuck shouldn't have done that what if he doesn't let me leav-

"Oh ya u should prolly dip I got my girl coming over" he say while eating his fucking bacon

"Wait u have a girl wtf why am I here why would u what the fuck gus" I can't or want to yell atp im jus tired of this

" sooo you leaving or what" he says completely ignoring what I said so I did jus that im done .

2 months later

Soooo I kept my promise kinda lol I haven't seen gus since buttttt I have talked to him jus when he's sad I jus don't want him to do something bad yk

I've been doing....... Ok? Idk I've been kinda sick sometimes which sucks mostly in the morning but I've been cutting down on drugs and alcohol

Really ca I jus haven't gone to parties I jus been really tired idk why but I gained some weight too so maybe I needa go out lol

But ya my life been pretty boring jus smoking weed watching dumb tv show and sleeping and lots and lots of eating I finally have been having a appetite recently so that good

Even tho it's "boring" as peep would say I've been loving it I've been partying and doing all the drugs and alcohol bs since 14 and finally getting to rest feels nice

But anyway today rose wanted to go to the mall with me since we don't hang a lot ca she has a bf now it's ok I mean it sucks I miss my bestie obviously but good for her

I just got done getting ready the Uber said 5 mins away soo time for shoes n to get rose "rose let's go Uber bouta be here!!" I yelled then saw her walking down the steps

Time skip to when they at the mall

Me and rose been walking around buying shit I bought some cute new Jordan's and new beats since I broke the last ones ofc lots of clothes and even some cute lingerie ca yk I'm tryna get a man lol Nahh but maybe

As we walking bouta be leaving I seen peep and his little gbc aka Gus's bitches club peep then started to run up to me fuckkkkkkk noooo please god

"Hey I been missing u princess" he says it almost almost got me but NO I can't

"Ion wanna talk I been sick bye" I say quickly walking away ion even wanna deal wit that

Next morning

Fuck I woke up nauseous asf again I threw up brush my teeth then went to the kitchen where rose bf Darien currently is he been staying here a bit ion mind ca he nice and better than rose at his house then ion see her

"Hey pukey" he says smiling while cooking something in the stove I roll my eyes " don't call me that" I say laughing a little

"I meannn I ain't here a lot but u do be puking every morning even tho u don't party like rose oh awww maybe ur pregnant yk rose would be happy" he says before going back to cooking

"I- im- ion think I'm pregnant idk u the doctor or whatever hoe u tell me" I say hoping he joking

" I mean pop a pregnancy tests rose got a couple in the bathroom" he says I make a face ca why she need tho which he quickly dismisses with shaking his head ok good

What if I'm pregnant nahhhh it would be gus tho atleast he rich I mean I hate to sound like a clout chaser but better than someone that broke and he care bout me I think so he has to care right

Wait he had a gf fuck it whatever im taking it fuck him im not think for him he'll do what he wants in the end so I gotta do what I need to do

Well the test is............................ Positive who coulda fucking guessed omggggggggg ima gonna kms I'm serious I can't do this I'm not

Im definitely not ready for a kid I should tell Gus tho right idk im getting rid of this thing I can't especially not with gus ik I joked ca he rich but no no I can't I can't he's just not good for me he wouldn't be good for a child
                      
                         Should I tell him tho?
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Should she tell Gus 😱
Sorry for not updating I don't really have ideas for this book