You and Niall had met a couple of weeks ago and you had to admit that you were into him head over heels. You were sure that he was someone special. He treated you really well and you guys could literally talk about anything. You enjoyed spending time with him and you felt save when he held you in his arms. He had told you that you meant a lot to him already and the way he treated you made you feel like he actually returned your feelings. You couldn't believe how lucky you were and that you finally found someone who you truly wanted to be with. Niall and you had decided to take things slow as you confessed your feelings for each other, just to give both you time to get to know one another better before things got serious.
By now you were ready for more though. He didn't know you were still a virgin and you felt insecure and a bit ashamed because you were his age and you were sure he has had a lot of sex already. He was gorgeous and he had been with different girls before, you knew that. You didn't know how to tell him and you thought about not telling him at all. But as soon as you thought about that for more than a minute, you knew you couldn't do that. You would probably be in pain and it wouldn't be fair not to tell him. He would notice once you two were doing it and maybe he'd get mad at you for not telling him and leaving him oblivious.
So this definitely wasn't an option. You were going over to Niall's tonight and you felt more nervous than ever before. You wanted him, you loved his face and body, you loved him. It was true, you became aware of it during the last days. It somehow scared you because you had never been in love before but Niall had wrapped you around his fingers.
During the afternoon you tried to figure out what to wear and how to tell him. You changed clothes for what felt like a hundred times and your room soon became a mess. It wasn't about the clothes after all, actually the important thing was your body tonight.
You took a long bath, shaving your body and washing your hair while you tried to relax in the hot water. But after some time all of the bubbles vanished and you started to shiver as the water cooled down. You gave up on finding a conclusion in the bathtub and heaved yourself out of the water, rubbing your body dry with a large towel and then wrapping it around your body tightly.
Once back in your room, you dropped the towel to the floor as you stood in front of your large mirror, staring at your naked body. What would he say when he would see you naked? What if he didn't think you were sexy or pretty? What if he didn't want you at all? You carefully examined yourself, trying to be happy with what you got. You should be happy about having him. But you couldn't help it, you just felt insecure. No boy had ever seen you naked or touched you down there. You only ever kissed guys and you had given a guy a hand job before when you had been drunk. And he had touched your boobs. But that was pretty much it. You were sure Niall was a lot more experienced.
You sighed heavily and put on your best underwear. It was a matching red lace bra and thong and you hoped Niall would like it. You liked how you looked in it, it made you feel sexy. You just prayed that he'd feel the same.
Once you were fully dressed and ready to go, you left your home. On your way to Niall you fiddled around with your clothes and hair. You were happy you hadn't told him that you were ready for more yet. It felt better to go there and surprise him. And in case you wouldn't feel comfortable once you were at his place you could still back out without making everything awkward.
Niall had cooked dinner for the two of you and you two talked about random things while you ate. It tasted great but you had a hard time, making yourself eat as much as you possibly could. You just felt excited and not in the mood for food at all.
"Is everything alright, babe?" Niall asked you once you were done eating and you nodded giving him a small smile. He looked gorgeous in his plain shirt and jeans. He never had to wear something special. Niall looked good in anything, he could wear a garbage bag and still look stunning.
Your eyes wandered across his face and you got up and walked over to him, sitting down on his lap. You smiled and leaned in to kiss him as you wrapped your arms around him slowly. He smiled against your lips and kissed you back, pulling your body closer to his. His lips felt so good on yours, it felt like the blood underneath your skin was boiling where he touched you.
"How about we go and watch a movie?" he suggested and you nodded automatically, trying to figure out how to break the news.
He led you to his bedroom and you sat down on his bed while he put a movie in. It started but you couldn't concentrate on a single thing, you didn't even know what was going on and which movie it was. Your thoughts kept running wild and you stared at him. He sat there next to you, with one arm around your shoulders and you were simply watching him, his eyes focused on the television. Your eyes wandered across his face, taking in the blue of his eyes and the shape of his nose and lips. He was attracting you so much, you wanted him. You wanted to be his.
You decided to be confident and make the first step, so you leaned closer to him and slowly traced his cheekbones with your fingertips. He turned his head to look at you. When he saw your intense gaze, he smiled at you sweetly and your heartbeat quickened.
"You're so perfect," you said and his cheeks blushed a little. He looked at you lovingly and shook his head slowly.
"No, but you are," he said and you moved your hands into his hair and pulled him closer to you. Your lips touched his and he grabbed your hair, pulling you in even closer. He ran his tongue across your lower lip tenderly, wanting more and you opened your lips, inviting his tongue in. Your let your tongues dance together and you felt so close to him, as he gently massaged yours with his. He was so good at this. You sighed into his mouth and then picked up your courage, tugging on his shirt as you kissed, your kissing growing more heated. He rolled on top of you and you shoved your hands underneath the thin fabric of his shirt slowly, tracing his abs. His breath hitched and he kissed you harder as he felt your hand sneak up to his chest, pulling the shirt with you. He stopped kissing you then and ripped his shirt off quickly. Niall stared into your eyes and you saw just how much he wanted you mirroring in his expression. His eyes were filled with desire and lust and he made you feel wanted. You couldn't believe he was looking at you like this, but he did. And this made you feel 100% sure that Niall was the one you wanted to lose your virginity to. He was perfect and he looked at you with such a loving but also craving gaze. He was the right one. You were sure. He gripped the hem of your shirt and pulled it up, taking it off your body. This felt really good. His lips covered yours again and you immediately kissed him back, tangling one of your hands in his hair while the other one was slowly tracing his chest and abs. His skin felt so soft underneath your fingertips and you felt him shiver as you touched him.
"Babe," he muttered between kisses as his lips wandered to your neck, leaving a wet trail on your skin.
"Mhh," was all you could say and you leaned your head to one side to give him a better access. His fingertips slowly brushed underneath your bra and across your nipples, making you whimper. You felt goosebumps covering your skin as his fingers softly flickered across your sensitive skin. He slowly pulled his fingers away and broke the kiss. He examined your breast, still covered by your bra.
"Fuck, you look so sexy," he groaned and pushed his hands around your body, bringing them to your back to unclasp your bra. His lips sucked on your neck as he did and he threw your bra away carelessly. His lips wandered down and he gently licked one of your nipples as both of his hands found your breasts, cupping them before giving them a light squeeze. You moaned as he wrapped his lips around one of your nipples, getting it hard immediately. He rubbed the other one between his fingertips and you started to arch your back, trying to bring your body closer to him.
He made you feel so good already, you wanted more. You could feel him getting hard against your thigh and you felt how you got wet, turned on by his touch and the way his dick was stiffening for you. After he sucked on your other nipple and swirled his tongue around it gently, he moved up, kissing you hungrily.
His dick was pressed against your crotch, making you moan into his mouth with excitement and you wanted to reach down and rub it, but you were scared. You still had to tell him that you were a virgin.
"Niall," you whimpered as his fingers moved down your stomach. You felt how your muscles clenched underneath his touch and it made you tingle inside.
"Stop," you muttered against his lips and his hand immediately froze, right above your jeans, ready to get them off you.
"You okay?" he whispered and his lips brushed yours as he spoke. You looked into each other's eyes and his expression was serious and concerned now, because you had told him to stop. But you could still see the excitement in his eyes.
"Yeah, there's just something you should know," you whispered back and felt your face burn. You knew you blushed really hard but you didn't care. Niall's cheeks were flushed too and you trusted him more than anyone else. You wanted him, but to get him you needed to tell him, there was no way you could keep it a secret.
"What's up?" he asked, bringing his hands up to your face, carefully cupping your cheeks. He watched you with his big blue eyes and you swallowed.
"It's the first time..." you said with a low voice, looking into his eyes. "I'm still a virgin, Niall."
You saw his eyes widen and his expression showed you that he was surprised.
"For real?" he asked and rubbed his thumb across your cheek, giving you a warm smile.
"Yes," you nodded and he leaned closer, kissing you softly.
"Are you sure you want to go on then?" he mumbled against your lips and you nodded quickly, your hands now playing with the waistband of his boxer that peaked out of his jeans.
"I want you to be the first one," you whispered and he kissed you again, this time passionately, as he slowly unzipped your pants and pushed them down your legs. You opened his belt and he got rid of his jeans as well, leaving both of you in your underwear. His lips were covering yours and you were recessed in a deep kiss as he traced his fingertips across your thong slowly. He rubbed your clit in small circles and you moaned into his mouth as he kept doing that. You felt warm and your heart was beating frantically in your chest but you still had goosebumps from his touch.
You moved your hand further down, carefully grabbing his cock over his boxers and squeezing it. He was very big, so it seemed to you at least, and you were a bit scared that it would hurt really bad but you knew you had to get over with it. You felt him kissing you harder as you started to palm him over his boxers and his fingers rubbed across your slit. His breathing hitched and he groaned into your mouth as he felt how wet your thong was already.
His fingers pulled it down slowly, leaving you completely naked underneath him. You did the same and pulled his boxers off, grabbing his erection as you did. You started to pump it up and down and he moaned your name as you did, his fingers now touching your bare skin. It was the first time someone touched you there and you wouldn't have expected it to feel so good but Niall made you feel like you were in paradise.
He slowly circled your entrance before pushing one of his fingers in slowly. It felt amazing when he did and it didn't hurt at all. He was carefully rubbing it against your walls and moved it in and out at a slow rhythm at the beginning. Then he pushed a second finger in and it didn't hurt either, he was so gentle and slowly tried to stretch you.
You moaned and kissed him again before letting go of him. You were both panting and you looked into his eyes, his fingers still moving inside of you.
"I want you now," you whispered and he smiled softly, pulling out. He placed soft kisses on your lips and then he looked into your eyes again. "Are you sure? It's going to hurt, babe."
"I know but yes, I'm sure, I want this. I want you, right now!" He smiled and nodded, sitting up. He grabbed a condom and you watched him as he pulled it on his dick. You still wondered how it was supposed to fit in, but you guessed you would find out sooner than later.
"Okay baby," he whispered and hovered over you again, spreading you legs with his hands.
"Tell me if you want me to stop," he said as he came closer to you. You nodded and looked down between your bodies. You felt his tip against your skin and he rubbed it against your entrance gently.
"I'm going to make you love to you now," he mumbled, before pushing the tip of his dick in very slowly. You gasped and he stopped, looking at your face intensely.
"Keep going," you mumbled and closed your eyes, grabbing his shoulders. He did what you asked him for and he slowly pushed himself in further. It hurt but it wasn't unbearable. It felt really uncomfortable though, you felt how much he was stretching you and it just felt unfamiliar to have him in you. He didn't move and you breathed in and out deeply, feeling his body close to yours. His lips found yours and he kissed you softly. You kissed him back, trying to concentrate on that as he slowly started to move his dick in and out of you. His hands started to massage your breasts and rub your nipples like he had done earlier and you tried to shut out the pain. You felt tears burn underneath your closed eyelids but you didn't let them escape your eyes, you didn't want him to see them. You knew he'd feel bad but it wasn't his fault. You were sure you'd appreciate his size when you got adjusted to him and when you got used to sex. To be honest you were sure that it wouldn't happen this time, but maybe next time you could come.
Niall kept doing what he did carefully and he was gentle all the time. Whenever you flinched he'd kiss you and after some time, he started to rub your clit. It helped you and it actually started to feel better.
"Fuck," he moaned against your lips and rubbed you harder, as he moaned again and again. "You're so tight," he whimpered and kissed you again, as he kept thrusting, faster by now.
"Oh, goddamn," he groaned and just to hear him moan in pleasure made you feel so good. You loved to hear this and his moan was probably your favorite sound ever.
"You feel so good, I wish-", he panted, "you could feel what I feel right now."
You stroked his hair and watched his face as he kept moving his dick in and out of you. His cheeks were flushed and his eyes were shut tightly. His lips were parted and sweat was forming on his forehead. You could see just how much pleasure he felt on his face and it was the most beautiful thing you had ever seen.
"Shit, I'm so close," he whispered against your lips and you kissed him gently. You were glad he was, you felt so sensitive and it still hurt. It was good to do it and you felt happy, feeling him so close to you, but your were glad and relieved that it was almost over. You just wanted to do it again tomorrow and again and again until you'd feel really comfortable with having him inside of you and you couldn't wait for that.
"Come for me then," you whispered and your grip around his shoulders tightened as you felt him go faster. He moaned as he did and you closed your eyes and dug your nails in his skin. He began to rub you again as he felt your nails digging into his shoulders and it eased the pain. You concentrated on his moans and the feeling of his thumb against your clit and tried to breathe in and out deeply.
Niall's thrusts grew sloppy and then he came with a loud groan and you heard him swearing as he came. He collapsed on top of you and his head lay on your chest. You could hear his heaving breathing. You stroked some hair out of his face and he pushed himself up slowly, before pulling out carefully. You winced and it hurt as he pulled out.
He took care of the condom and then he hovered over you again, pecking your lips.
"Thank you," you whispered against his mouth and he began to kiss you passionately, holding your cheeks in his hands as he did. You kissed him back and tangled your hands in his hair, feeling his heart beating really fast as you bodies were pressed together tightly.
"Thank you," he replied after a moment. "for letting me be your first. I'm so happy and I feel honored to be the first one who got to touch you." He smiled. "I hope it was alright."
"It was perfect, Niall," you said. You didn't say it to make him feel good, no, you meant that. It had felt better than you had expected and he had been so sweet and careful with you. He was so special to you and you regretted nothing. You were more than happy.
"I'm glad," he muttered and pecked your lips again. "Because that's how it felt for me, too!"
You smiled at each other and you hugged him tighter.
"I love you, Niall," you blurted out and felt yourself blush as soon as the words left your mouth. His smile grew wider and even more beautiful.
"I love you, too, Y/N, you're perfect," he said, the look in his eyes sincere and he made you the happiest girl in the world tonight.
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A/T
hey sorry not updated in a long time but I'm going to be spending time to now every Friday Saturday and Sunday
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