Junior Hearts

Chapter Four

The entire ride home my head was spinning and I couldn't stop crying. Sam kept trying to call me, but I just let every call go to voicemail. As soon as I got home I went inside and ran up to my room before my family realized I was there. The second I got into my room I threw myself onto my bed. I wasn't crying anymore, just laying there, trying to process what had just happened. My phone was still ringing, even though I refused to answer Sam kept calling. Five minutes later and he still wouldn't give up, I grabbed my phone and answered it, giving up.

"What?" I quietly asked.

"Bradley, I'm sorry okay. I can't help how I feel about you though, please just talk to me." He begged, I knew he was upset too. I glanced at the clock, '8 o'clock,' I thought.

"Fine."

"Can I come over?"

"Okay." I hung up without waiting for him to respond, I knew he'd be over in a matter of minutes. I was right, about three minutes later I heard a knock at the door and Noah letting Sam inside. I sat up, wiped my face off, and smoothed out my hair. I heard a knock at my door. "Come in." I took a deep breath.

"Hi." Sam stood in the door frame, he looked embarrassed and slightly uncomfortable. I didn't answer, just sat there and watched him. He finally walked over and sat down on the bed next to me. We sat there in silence for a few minutes, the before I knew what I was doing I leaned over and started hugging him.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have overreacted like that, you're my best friend. I don't want to lose you." I looked up at him, still holding onto him.

"I shouldn't have told you all of that stuff out of nowhere. I was just acting out of jealousy, so I'm sorry too." He tightly hugged me back. We sat there quietly for a few minutes, just holding onto each other. Then Sam spoke up again, "But you never told me how you feel..." He pulled back and looked expectantly down at me.

"...honestly, I feel the same way, but I don't want to ruin what we have..." I didn't want to admit that the only thing holding me back was Caden, mostly because he shouldn't have been. I had just met him and I had know Sam my whole life, but as much as I tried I couldn't stop thinking about him. Unfortunatly, Sam easily figured out what I was thinking about.

"Is it because of that new kid? Is he what's holding you back?" Strangely, he didn't sound angry this time, just hurt and sad. I sighed before responding.

"I don't know. I've liked you for so long! But I just, I don't know, I can't stop thinking about him..." I could feel my cheeks burning, but I knew there was no point in lying to him.

"Maybe this will help you forget about him..," before I could process what he'd said or even react, Sam had pressed his lips against mine. I sat there, frozen. Before I could react, Sam had pulled back and walked to my bedroom door. "I'm not going to harass you anymore. When you figure out what you want, let me know. Until then, we can just pretend this never happened, okay?" I was still frozen in place, my mouth hanging wide open. Sam turned and walked down the stairs, I heard him saying goodbye to my family before walking out the front door. I wasn't sure what to do, I thought about chasing after him, but ultimately decided against it. I sat on the bed trying to process what had happened to me that day. After a few minutes, I decided I was too tired to think about anything else. I quickly did my homework before getting in the shower and getting ready for bed. When I was finally ready for bed it was only 9:30 p.m., but too much had happened that day. I laid down and was asleep within seconds of my head hitting the pillow.

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The next morning I woke up, even less excited to go to school than I had been the day before. I crawled out of bed and quickly did my hair and makeup before getting dressed. I pulled on a pair of black leggings, a black Arctic Monkeys t-shirt, a denim shirt and my white converse then grabbed my bag and keys and went down to the kitchen. I poured myself some coffee while I waited for Noah and Liam to finish getting ready. When they were finally ready we headed outside and I saw Sam driving down the street in his truck. 'Good,' I thought, 'the last thing I need right now is to have to deal with Sam.' I got in the car and dropped Noah and Liam off at school. I got to school a while later and immediately headed inside, not wanting to run into anyone. Once I got inside I headed to my locker to get my things. As I was grabbing my stuff I heard someone walk up to me. I silently hoped it wasn't Sam before turning around.