-Ugh. Finally Im done whit this shit too. I cant believe it taked that much time, and it looks really bad but meh -_-. At least Im done. - I posted the video to tt and waited for the ppl to like it and everything. When I was about to give up I got my first comment. It was a random person. They commented "my lock screen says "HEHEHE."-". I found it kinda funny and I asked her if she could show me. She gived me her Instagram user and I added her. She sended me the pic
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After that we started to talk and I already knowed her name. Her name is Jovana. Such a beautiful name. After a bit I started to like her. -Hey bestie... -Whats wrong!? What happened?! - Im scared. What happened?... -Can you help me whit Arabella and Kelcie?... They got in a fight... - oh god. I really hope its not what I think... -Yea sure, but who are they? - Please tell me its not what I think... -They are my gf's, and they got in a fight bc Kelcie called Arabella a bitch but she didn't mean it like that... - Why?... Am I... Jealous?... No no no no no. Stop thinking about it she needs your help. -Ofc I can bestie. Can you make a gc whit them? - I already hate them. -Let me ask them... Brb... -okay! - while I waited her I was really jealous. I wanted to stab them. -They dont want sorry... - Why is she apologizing that much? -Its alr. Can you give me there users? - Im gonna help her not making it worse. I just dont get it... Why can she be mine?... -Mhm... - She sended me the user and I felt weird. Idk how do write it down bc Irdk how I feel. - there you go... -Thank you bestie. I promise Everything will be alright okay? - Try to calm her down. Maybe if I try to be more nicer she will have feelings for me... but its not a good idea... Im just gonna stay like that and let this feeling go... -Mhm... - I wish I could hug her. I dont like it when she sad. I love her smile. I love it when shes happy so Im gonna help her to be hapoy again. :3 - I started to talk whit them and make it better. After 10 minutes I solved it and gived them tips. I was really sad for it... I hated myself then. I didn't wanted to help her... I felt shitty but still act like I was okay... -There you go. I told you everything will be alr. - I writed her acting like I'm okay. -Thank you so much bestie... - How tf should I cheer her mood. -Hey cheer up girl. Its alr. Arabella said she really sorry. Everythings alr now -Okay... Thanks again... -Np I always be here for you! <3 - Please Ik its rude but I really want them to break up and than she will be mine... I really want her... -thanks... I try to cheer up... - I want to hug her so hard. Wish I could...
We played and laughed so much. She give me butterflys. I really really love her. How could I tell her... I have a gf who dont love le anymore and just using me... What can I do... Im just gonna wait... I let the time do anything... I grabbed the alcohol started drink it. I wasn't thinking then so I took some pills too. It wasnt the best idea I see now but then I didn't knowed better. My gf writed to me and said she aromatic and dont want to be whit me anymore. She blocked me. I cried. I writed to my bestie. To Jovana.
-Hey bestie can you help me whit smt... - I wont tell her what I did. She would be really mad and might leave me saying "Il sorry but this is too much". -Ofc what is it? - I told her what happened whit me and Moon. -Omfg...Ofc I can. -Can you talk to them?... -Ofc what them user? - I sended her they user - Thank you bestie. I try my best. I promise everything will be alr. - Why is she so nice? Why does she has to give me butterflys? Am I in love whit her? No. Im not. Stop this shit. She will never love a monster like me. -Okay thanks again bestie... You such a wonderful friend... -Awww :>. Anytime bestie!- She went to talk to her and I started to cry more. I hated it. I hated myself. I didn't wanted to talk any1. I only wanted to talk to Jovana. Am I really in love whit my best friend?... Im so stupid. I was drowning in my thoughts. It made me feel like Im the bad person...
The vibration of my phone rattled me out of my thoughts. It was Jovana. I unlocked my phone and I checked what she sent me. It was her and Moon talking. I regret watching it. I felt more unless than ever. After 4 months they decided like that. I can understand it tbh. I wasn't enough for them. They needed that what I will never have. I wanted to dissappear.
-I cant believe it.. After 4 months they do this to me... - I couldn't take it. I needed time to move on. -Im so sorry bestie :( Wish I could help you... - I didn't wanted to talk so I decided to go. -Im sorry but have to go now bestie... -No. You ain't go anywhere. - I sended her a pic where I was making a wreath. -Oh okay. Stay safe!! Text me when you feel better! - thanks god she believed it. -Okay I will... - left the phone and just thinking. I was alone whit the alcohol. I could let it go and try to not think about it, but it was hard then and I didn't wanted to live. I decided to get some sleep.
>Hello everyone!!! So this is my first book and its really bad but meh -_- Oh and Moon is my ex (I wont tell them real name) Jovana is my bestie in here, but later it will change. Kelcie and Arabella is Jovanas ex's. Please leave ideas TnT<
